I am just desperately needing of you, Jesus.
Without you I can do nothing.
That equals zero to me.
But with you, empowered by the Holy Spirit,
I can do all things.
I need you on coming tonight.
I need you to touch my back.
I need Jesus to be exalted and magnified
and glorified.
I submit to you, the person of the
Holy Spirit, who alone can do it.
But you do your job marvelously, Holy Spirit.
I'm in awe of you.
Father God, thank you for this immense privilege.
Thank you for fulfilling the desire of my
heart, as I used to cry out in
my house, alone, with you and my darling
husband.
Get me to the radical 20 and 30
year olds.
I didn't know how you would answer that
prayer.
But you put the desire there, and I
knew that.
And you never give it as a desire
that you don't fulfill.
So I thank you that this beautiful, wonderful
audience that you've brought together, they think they're
privileged.
But I'm a thousand times more privileged.
I'm humbled by this opportunity that you've given
me.
And I thank you.
I thank you.
Now fulfill all that was on your heart
when you put those deep desires that I
would call out loud.
And it would sound insane.
It would sound ridiculous.
How could an 87 year old ever get
to 20 and 30 year olds?
But I have noticed you're not limited by
anything, other than our unbelief or disobedience.
When we have faith and when we obey
you, you will open any door, anywhere, at
any time.
When we have one passion only, and that
is that Jesus may be glorified.
Teach us your ways tonight.
Cause time to stand still in this church.
Like you did in that room a month
ago when I spoke to the women.
Eight hours.
And time stood still.
Pain lifted from our bodies.
No one was thirsty.
No one was tired.
No one was hungry.
We were in the manifest presence of the
living Christ.
Lift us into the...
You'll have to give me the words to
describe it.
I can't describe it yet.
Lift us into the awesome, awesome, manifest presence
of the living Christ.
Who knows no time, no limit.
Limitless, timeless.
God, put us in that tonight.
Thank you that you will.
Amen.
The message that God has laid upon my
heart to bring to you tonight is about
desperate praying.
Do not put the word praying.
That's not what it's about.
Desperate praying.
Desperate praying comes from the hearts of people
who know there's a desperate need and are
desperate for God to meet that need.
Isaiah 64, verse 7.
Listen to God challenging us.
Does anybody know this verse before I quote
it?
Isaiah 64, 7.
Anybody in the building?
Listen to God's challenge.
There is no one that calls upon your
name that stirs himself to take hold of
you.
I've answered that challenge more times than I
can remember or count, and I've said to
God, I read your challenge, but you can't
say that anymore because here I am, ready
to stir myself up to take hold of
you in intercession.
Desperate people pray with intensity, and we're going
to see some of the ways in which
that intensity is expressed in the word of
God because everything I'm speaking about is coming
from the word of God.
If I can't make a statement that can
be backed by scripture, I don't make it.
My authority is this book.
Let's look at ways in which that intensity
is expressed.
You call out to God.
You can weep.
You can wrestle with God like Jacob did,
only he was wrestling for personal change.
We can wrestle for other people to be
changed.
We're going to see that it can be
both tonight.
Travail.
Every woman knows who has had a child
what the word travail means.
The men only hear about it and go,
ho-hum.
I've always said to God, if one man
only gave birth to a child, the world
would change.
The world remains unchanged.
The men haven't got a clue.
Who's had a baby?
1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8,
9, 10, about a dozen of us.
Would you say amen?
Thank you.
This can include fasting.
Now I want to say something here that
I hope you never forget.
Some people automatically link prayer and fasting together.
The Bible doesn't.
What the Bible does teach is that there
were people such as Moses, Ezra, Nehemiah, Jehoshaphat,
Daniel, Paul, Esther, Hannah, David, the king and
the city of Nineveh all fasted and prayed
with intensity, with great results.
But Jesus said, when you fast.
What does that mean?
The implication is there's going to be times
when he clearly tells you to.
That's what when means.
Not all the time.
You don't have to fast every time you
pray.
You fast when the Holy Spirit prompts you
to fast and pray.
And by the way, if you think just
fasting alone is going to do it, that
is not what the Bible teaches.
It's fasting and praying together when he tells
you.
And if you are fasting and he has
not told you to fast and you wonder
why you're going through agony, check in with
God if it's presumption.
And if you are fasting, if you are
praying and not getting through, check in with
God if he wanted you to fast with
the praying.
The whole deal is obedience.
Not the fasting.
It can be,
intensity can be expressed in silence.
Total silence and yet an agony of intensity.
It was so with Hannah.
In 1 Samuel 1 12-16, there's so
much to get through tonight, believe me, that
we can't possibly take the time to turn
that up.
1 Samuel 1 12-16, Hannah is in
intense agony of soul to have a child
and not one word comes out of her
mouth.
She was terribly misjudged by the spiritual leader
over her who was Eli.
Thought she was a drunken woman and said
so and rebuked her.
But do you know the amazing thing about
Hannah?
Her name means grace by the way.
The amazing thing was not so much the
travail which is a lesson for us tonight
but the way she handled the judgment of
a spiritual leader over her who knew her
character and knew better than to ever say
what came out of his mouth.
You're a drunken woman.
It was the way she responded to the
spiritual leader above her who was totally out
and doing and saying the wrong thing.
She forgave him in her heart and she
still honored him and spoke graciously to him
as she told him the facts.
She did not say well if you were
in tune with God you would have known
that I've had no alcohol whatsoever and I'm
a woman of God travailing before God for
a child so how insensitive to the Holy
Spirit can you be?
She could have easily said that and that's
how some women react when spiritual leaders misjudge
women.
But her name means grace and she received
the grace of God and she humbly just
told him the facts no more and forgave
him in her heart and then the big
action took place but not before.
That's when Eli came back in the spirit
of God and said your petition is going
to be answered.
And blessed her.
How many women have lost the blessing from
God over a spiritual leader that they criticized
when he was wrong?
The Bible makes it very clear in the
Psalms touch not the Lord's anointed and do
my prophets no harm.
That isn't a suggestion it's a command.
And if you read my book Intimate Friendship
with God you will see a whole chapter
I have devoted called Touch Not the Lord's
Anointed and I tell some of the amazing
dealings with God with me as a young
woman that absolutely changed my life irrevocably in
relation to this subject.
There isn't time to go there tonight but
it's in that book.
Tell me, be honest before God put up
your hand male or female whether you've just
learned something.
Thank you.
Praise to Jesus.
I was sitting in a church one night
in New Zealand the wonderful very wonderful Baptist
church that my husband was an elder in
and he and I were very very involved
whenever the church was open we were there.
And it was a Sunday night and a
great a very close friend of ours who
was a great man of God and very
anointed was speaking.
It was the only time he spoke was
a Sunday evening in our church.
He was an international Bible teacher and God
had given him a very heavy subject that
in relation to heaven and hell with the
understanding that he felt that there was going
to be at least one or more in
that church where God was showing them that
it was the last opportunity that they had
to receive the Lord because they had resisted
him.
And this was their last chance and he
was feeling the weight of this message on
him.
And we were very close friends and in
my ministry of intercession I felt the weight
with him.
And the person who qualified for the witness
in his spirit was my dear husband Jim's
business friend.
A friend that he worked with in business
and had invited to come to this meeting.
Definitely a non-Christian.
But we had this understanding that this was
God's final opportunity for this man.
Now that's an awesome responsibility to be in
both from the preacher's and from the point
of view of intercessors.
Because the man was brought by Jim and
me to the church as our friend he
was sitting right beside Jim and me in
I think it was the front row.
And I knew that every single minute without
letting up for one moment that my role
was to be interceding for that lost soul
who was sitting right beside me.
I think he was sitting in between Jim
and me.
I couldn't let him hear one sound of
intense travail.
I had to be like Hannah.
It says her lips moved.
I don't think I moved my lips.
And I sat right beside him close.
He never had a clue not one sound
came from me.
No hand actions, head actions, nothing from me.
I just sat absolutely totally still, still my
eyes closed and was in intense travail the
entire time of the message.
I know what this is about but not
a sound.
When the invitation was given he walked straight
forward immediately and came to Christ and fully
surrendered himself and was gloriously born again.
Hallelujah.
Hallelujah to Jesus.
So many preachers lack intercessors in the audience
who will carry the burden with them.
It's an immense privilege.
And don't tell me any one of you
in this building if under those kind of
circumstances where it is totally inappropriate to have
any sound coming from you at all.
If that's how God has shown it to
be and many times it is if that's
how God has shown it to be then
you shut up and do it God's way
quietly so that nobody knows.
Why should anybody else know if you're doing
it just for Jesus?
And I've heard people say they've said it
to me I don't swallow it for one
minute oh I just had to let out
that yell or I had to let out
that groan or I just had to do
that odd thing.
I say do you want to hear what
the word of God says?
Because it's not it doesn't matter to me
it isn't my opinion.
The spirit of the prophet is subject to
the prophet Bible.
The spirit of the prophet is subject to
the prophet you can control it you don't
have to yell, weep, scream holler, do something
bizarre or anything so don't bring that one
to me.
And I've been in audiences where somebody did
and I would just say would you be
quiet please?
That is absolutely what's the word?
What's the word I want?
Disruptive.
Thank you John.
Just thank you John.
Just be in every service I'm in darling
and help me.
Absolutely disruptive to what God the Holy Spirit
was doing at that time.
And I have seen Dr. Jack Hayford who
is the founding pastor of Church on the
Way where Jim and I have been forever
I don't know when we started we're old
but we've been there forever decades from the
earliest days when he started and I have
seen people go give a prophetic word supposedly
out and Jack Hayford would just stop and
say excuse me I don't know you sir
are you a member of this church?
I don't think so have I ever met
you before?
and the man would say no so a
total stranger come in would you just stop
what you were doing?
the man was starting to prophesy or something
supposedly and would you just go to the
elder that is now right at your side
and would you submit to him what you
felt you were going to have to say
and he will check it out and he'll
give me the signal if that's right and
I have seen that man I watched it
bristle mad angry if you bristle and you're
angry and you're mad when a spiritual leader
asks you to quietly submit to somebody else
above in authority you are the problem because
Jesus is looking for humility and if you've
got a valid word from the Lord and
you speak it out and somebody doesn't agree
with you that that's right then in humility
you just submit to what the spiritual leadership
says even if you're right now and just
say oh that's perfectly fine I'm submitted to
authority and if you're not happy with that
I leave the responsibility with God I leave
you with God and I leave me with
God and I let God work it all
out even if I wait till the judgment
seat and you smile and you're as happy
as a lark and on you go humility
put up your hand if you just learned
something thank you Jesus I'm
thanking him because to my best knowledge of
my understanding I'm getting in the month that
I've been preparing for this I thought this
is what he told me to tell you
and he's just encouraged me so I'm just
thanking him we choose to be desperate then
call on the Lord how do we get
this desperate praying?
we choose it's an act of the will
you have to want it don't wait for
the till the Holy Spirit zaps you in
your heart out in the spirit before you
think you know just say to God I
want to get desperate then call then call
on the Lord to help you submit to
the Holy Spirit in faith who then gives
us the divine perspective on the object of
our prayers does anybody want that sentence again?
we choose to be desperate we call on
the Lord we then submit to the Holy
Spirit in faith who then gives us the
divine perspective on the object of our prayers
Romans 8 26 likewise the spirit helps us
in our weakness for we do not know
how to pray as we ought we don't
know how to get desperate in prayer now
God wants us to but the Holy Spirit
will do the work God wants us to
experience desperate praying in the following areas now
this may surprise you it may not doesn't
matter we need the point anyway for the
fulfillment of our destinies are you and I
desperate before God for the fulfillment of our
destinies I didn't say that you wanted your
desires to be fulfilled I didn't say that
I said your destiny to be fulfilled that
can be a totally different thing what's your
name darling yes you yeah what's your name
Joa Joanne okay Joy same mine as mine
how do you spell it J-O-A
-E I've never heard that in my life
thank you for teaching me something Joa that
it Joa is that right have I got
it Joa oh thank you Johnny Johnny
I always knew I needed you darling I
love you Johnny yes
sweetheart I will gladly do you know what
he asked me you haven't a clue have
you do you know what he said with
all the sincerity in his gorgeous blue eyes
would you be my grandma he said
he doesn't have one he has one now
just call me Nan that's what my grandchildren
all call me just Nan that be alright
just Nan did you call me that darling
yeah N-A-N because that's the name
my grandchildren call me so if you're going
to find me to be your grandma you
have to get the name so God wants
us to experience desperate praying for the fulfillment
of our destinies do you know what our
destinies are we've all got the same one
we all have the same destiny it's found
in Romans 8.29 for him he foreknew
he also predestined to be conformed to the
image of his son that's our destiny nothing
less I used to say and it became
part of youth with a mission as part
of the DNA it's gone all over the
world from what I brought to it in
I met Lauren Cunningham in 1967 that seems
like forever ago and I said my vision
my destiny is to know God and make
him known and Lauren said that's going to
be the that's going to be the slogan
for youth for YWAM and it's become it
I don't have that slogan today that's the
secondary thing I have found that the by
far the more important thing is what I've
just given you it's my destiny and yours
is to be conformed to the image of
Jesus now you may say no way could
I ever live like Jesus on earth oh
so you're limiting the Holy Spirit you better
repent straight away because it's one of the
Holy Spirit's biggest jobs is to make us
like Jesus nearly every night of my life
before I go to sleep I say to
my lover number one Jesus the lover of
my soul I say Holy Spirit come come
come and do whatever is needed in me
to conform me to the image of my
beautiful lover Jesus thank you that you will
night after night after night after night I
go to sleep on that one because it's
the consuming longing of my heart and I
say do whatever it takes don't short change
me and that means if it means a
lot more suffering if it means stuff that
I think I could never handle you can
handle anything Holy Spirit but make me more
like Jesus top prayer do we regularly pray
earnestly about right priorities you answer these questions
you're not answering me you're answering the Holy
Spirit who's in charge here tonight I'm doing
whatever he tells me to do moment by
moment do you regularly pray earnestly about right
priorities in other words do you say to
God on a daily basis oh please show
me anywhere at any time today if I
have my priorities wrong according to your standard
for my life have you ever prayed that
prayer once never mind as a way of
life it should be a way of life
why because our choices determine our priorities and
our priorities determine our destinies your destiny will
only be as fulfilled as you are making
God's priorities the priorities for your life no
other way Jesus had to pray desperate prayers
listen to this one I've never heard this
in my lifetime that I can remember Jesus
prayed desperate prayers in the Garden of Gethsemane
that his destiny would be fulfilled you say
well now you're completely out theologically ok well
listen to this verse Hebrews 5 verse 7
I'm reading from the Revised Standard Version in
the days of his flesh Jesus offered up
prayers and supplications with loud cries and tears
this is Jesus loud cries and tears he's
sobbing his heart out he's speaking to his
father he was in the Garden of Gethsemane
and I go on to quote loud cries
and tears to him who was able to
save him and the implication the implied is
premature death and he was heard for his
godly fear so what was Jesus doing crying
out to God the Father to keep him
alive that he would be able to go
through physically and emotionally the agonies of crucifixion
and separation from the Father who had been
in an unclouded communion before time began that
he would physically as Son of Man be
able to stay alive to cope with not
only the 39 floggings on his back he
was flogged 39 with a cat of nine
tails ripping at his flesh before they and
up all night flogged up all night no
sleep doesn't say that anybody gave him a
drink or any food and he went straight
out the next day and they put how
many pounds crossed does Arthur Blessed carry how
many pounds does Arthur Blessed cross nobody knows
I've heard it many times but I didn't
say something that's maybe off the charts a
very heavy wooden cross on his shoulders listen
his back was already lacerated and bleeding with
raw flesh ripped out he had had the
thorn of crowns put into his brow his
head was bleeding they had pulled his beard
out his image was so mad it was
scarred like no other man he was unrecognizable
he was he was nearly dead when they
put the cross on him no wonder he
couldn't carry it and Simon of Cyrene had
to come along and carry his cross because
physically he couldn't make it and Jesus was
facing that in the garden of Gethsemane and
then on top of that is crucifixion hanging
with nails in his hands and through his
feet and Jesus knew what was coming and
he says to the father listen to it
in the days of his flesh Jesus offered
our prayers and supplications with loud cries and
tears to him who was able to save
him from death he was able to keep
him alive God keep me alive father so
that I can go through the agonies of
this physical and mental suffering but his greatest
suffering by far than all the horrendous physical
suffering was being made the accumulative sin the
filth of all the sins of the world
when time began were heaped upon him he
became sin and then he was separated from
the one he had been in unclouded communion
with before time began the longer I live
the more the more I pour out my
heart to Jesus and say for the incredible
Christ you prayed just to save my soul
so he knows what desperate prayer is all
about Isaiah 53 11 confirms what I've just
spoken from Hebrews 5 7 Isaiah 53 11
I'm reading from the King James version he
Jesus shall see of the travail of his
soul he was travailing in his soul for
God to keep him alive to go through
with what he had to do and shall
be satisfied next point desperate praying to know
God's character and ways I have a booklet
that's available and I brought it with me
is she not with the Lord or she's
alive she's alive okay congratulate her for me
for reading that book will you tell her
she was really sharp right at the very
front before they you have anything else in
the Bible they have put that little booklet
word for word at the very beginning of
the women of destiny Bible that's the importance
of Thomas Nelson felt about the message that's
contained you can get it for three dollars
I can't go into it it's
found grace in your sight show me now
your way that I may know you and
that I might find grace in other words
more grace in your sight and then verse
18 he goes deeper and he says I
pray show me your glory now this morning
before I ever started in the notes that
were in my notebook we had a whole
move of God on the glory of God
didn't we and what it meant and I
read you two incredible stories of mighty men
of God one who had fasted and prayed
for a whole month and when the glory
came couldn't take it and asked to be
delivered it was so intense and then we
had the story of Smith's Wigglesworth when everybody
else couldn't take it he was alone standing
basking in it and we were ruined for
the ordinary this morning weren't we show me
your glory what does it mean to show
what was behind Moses's prayer something like this
Moses wanted to know what made God tick
he wanted to have an intimate relationship with
God that he would find out why God
did what he did why he said what
he said Moses wanted to see beyond God's
personality and awesome power that wasn't enough for
him he wanted to know and understand God's
character only those who have been up close
to us over long periods of time ever
know our characters you can see my personality
you can easily see that you can easily
define it whether you like it or not
is your business but you've got to put
up with it anyway but that doesn't mean
you know me only those who have been
close beside me over long periods of time
and have seen my actions and reactions in
times of pressure and stress they're the ones
who know me Moses was so desperate for
this close relationship with God listen to this
he was willing to go without food and
water and climb Mount Sinai three times alone
to be with God and remain there for
protracted lengths of time Moses kept pressing the
point with God as an intercessor and wanting
to be God's friend he wanted God's favor
as well as an understanding of his ways
now let me stop there for a minute
I hear on Christian networks in television constantly
these words God just loves you unconditionally he's
actually he's never mad with you he's he
just I've heard several say he's absolutely ravingly
excited about you and I sit there listening
watching the TV and thinking so where have
you been lately in the word yes God
loves us all unconditionally no question no question
about that but listen God isn't excitedly jumping
up and down over you if you're in
disobedience and you're in unbelief and you don't
know his ways and you're mouthing out stuff
about him and you don't know him therefore
you're giving a distorted view of his character
yes he unconditionally loves you but listen there's
a vast difference between God's unconditional love which
is to everybody and God's favor and that's
what I want I want that more than
anything else I'm not content to know that
he unconditionally loves me I want his favor
his favor his favor and he only gives
his favor to intimate close friends who've taken
the time to pursue to understand what makes
him tick if you're an employer and you
want the best employee you want that employee
to know what are the things most important
to you as the employer correct and not
only to know what they are but to
live accordingly under that employer's authority
you want them to make what is important
to you important to them and who does
the employer give favor to the ones who
make the most important to the employer important
to them God's no different he's the ultimate
employer are you desperate to understand what makes
God tick why does he do this why
does he say that what's his character like
I have spent a lifetime I'm 87 a
lifetime study the character and the ways of
God I have to correct that I've spent
55 years of my 87 years 57 years
57 years of my 87 years desperately seeking
to know the character and the ways of
God and it wasn't until I did that
that my spiritual life started to take off
God was impressed with this man who wanted
God's favor as well as an understanding of
his ways because Moses wanted to know as
I've said what were the things important to
God that were important to him Exodus 33
13 is the reference to that God was
so impressed that he says Moses is the
only one where the Bible says these words
nobody else he talked to God face to
face as a man talks to his friend
Exodus 33 11 so do you look at
Moses and read that verse like I did
55 years ago and say well that's Moses
or do you say look Moses was flesh
and blood like I was like I am
if he could do that I can do
it I'm going to pursue God like that
absolutely with my whole being I'm going to
pursue him day after day I'll be in
his word crying out show me now your
ways that I may know you show me
your glory I'll obey you instantly joyfully and
holy no matter what it is God says
I see that little person down there they're
serious I'll start revealing myself I would pick
up my Bible and so much revelation of
truth would pour on me year after year
decade after decade that my problem was getting
time to enough to be able to get
the notes get the revelation of the truth
in note form to teach it out revelation
would just pour pour favor Psalm
63 one to two oh God you are
my God early when I seek you my
soul thirsts for you my flesh longs for
you in a dry and thirsty land where
there is no water so I have looked
for you in the sanctuary to see your
power and your glory Paul's prayer Philippians three
ten oh that I may know him and
the power of his resurrection and the fellowship
of his sufferings and here comes the real
key being conformed to his death what does
that mean that means death to everything of
us what we want doesn't mean a thing
what does he want I think that's what
I think doesn't mean a thing what does
he think search the word there is an
answer in the word of God for every
single thing we will ever need to have
or go through there's there's nothing that you
can you can need an answer for in
this life that's not in here nothing I
have a lifetime to prove it with the
wildest of stories of God speaking to me
through his word I was asking God we
had a flood in our home a couple
of years ago in fact we've had three
floods in our home in about the last
three years interesting I didn't say there were
problems I said it was interesting I said
to God on one occasion what in the
world is the purpose for this enormous mess
and inconvenience the answer came back I want
you to witness to the men who are
going to have to come in and do
the work and clean up the mess oh
I said that's great let's go that's no
problem I don't care about the mess not
for one more minute and in would come
I think there were eight workmen that all
had to come in in different stages to
paint or clean up or put new carpet
down and I'm flat out witnessing to the
whole lot of them and I could write
a small book on the wonder of the
joy and the fulfillment of those days and
weeks and months before it was all cleaned
up but the witnessing wouldn't swap it for
anything ask the Holy Spirit what's the purpose
don't get mad with them don't complain proverbs
four verse seven says whatever you get get
insight interesting verse whatever you get get insight
insight must be terribly important what's insight go
to the word proverbs nine verse ten says
the fear of the Lord is the beginning
of wisdom and the knowledge of the Holy
One is understanding or insight so whatever you
get get the knowledge of the character of
God Proverbs two verse three to five yes
if you cry out for discernment and lift
up your voice for understanding see this is
desperate praying if you seek her as silver
and search for her as for hidden treasures
then you will understand the fear of the
Lord and find the knowledge of God do
you search to know the knowledge of God
as you do when you lose money come
on let's get real anybody lost money at
any time anybody not lost money that would
be easy how did you go for it
were you casual of course you weren't you
diligently went on and on and prayed and
went on and on and more to get
that money right and God says listen if
you do this this is the intensity that
I want you to come after me to
know my character and my ways and then
then you'll find you'll understand the fear of
the Lord then you'll find the knowledge of
God Isaiah 26 verse 9 with my soul
Isaiah 26 9 with my soul I have
desired you in the night yes by my
spirit within me I will seek you early
for when your judgments oh this is a
terribly insignificant verse for when your judgments are
in the earth the inhabitants of the world
will learn righteousness we could talk a lot
about that verse in the ways of God
that's one of the most controversial verses in
the Bible because there are many many Bible
teachers that don't believe that verse at all
what did it say when your judgments are
in the earth the inhabitants of the world
will learn righteousness it's so controversial I didn't
go anywhere I just leave you with the
word but this this is coming up over
and over again I hear it on Christian
television all the time around this and this
is the answer 3 this is intensity for
a closer lover relationship with Jesus now
the word of God gets very intimate and
very interesting Song of Solomon chapter 5 verses
2 to 6 we see that the whole
point of the Song of Solomon with the
king and his lover and some of the
detailed interactions which include physically with one to
another the whole purpose of the book is
for us to see that it is a
type of our love relationship with Jesus that's
the whole point when you read the book
with that in mind then the Holy Spirit
will start giving you revelation this became one
of the most profound books that God used
for me to have the intimate lover relationship
that I have with Jesus today that came
out of this listen to chapter 5 verses
2 through 6 I sleep says the woman
lover of the king I sleep but my
heart is awake can you see what the
Holy Spirit is saying can you see what
the Holy Spirit is saying Jesus I'm going
to sleep tonight but I want to tell
you that my conscious mind may be wiped
out and I need that rest but I
want to tell you my heart is awake
to you you can speak to me anytime
you want you can wake me you can
tell me to do anything in the night
I'm awake in my spirit to you 24
7 that's what that means I'm sleeping but
my heart is awake to you you can
speak to me in dreams you can talk
to me many times I wake to hear
the Holy Spirit speaking to me book chapter
and verse and I go to it and
my lover God has got something to say
to me profound he can give us dreams
I have a friend who Jesus speaks profound
dreams to all the time I don't get
jealous of that I've only had one dream
in my life that was a spiritual dream
from God it was very profound I've only
had one my friend has them maybe six
or seven a month and they're tremendously important
and revelation on all kinds of things he
was getting an office complex for his ministry
he's an evangelist very very close friend of
mine and he was seeking God as to
the right place to go to have his
office and he was in one of these
dreams that God was speaking in the night
and God showed him the faces of three
men who were in the underworld you know
what I mean by that um thugs owned
a lot of money and were absolutely evil
and he saw the three faces and in
the dream the Holy Spirit says I'm warning
you watch out for them they're in the
building they're in the same building the next
day he's walking into his office and out
of the elevator of the big building where
the office is out walks a guy the
exact epitome of what he'd seen in the
dream with a woman um on each arm
and everything and the then screamed about him
thug underworld you know he had seen it
in the dream and God had warned him
and he saw the next day the exact
thing he'd seen in the dream your lover
wants to do all this sort of thing
for you but this this same friend of
mine is awake and up every morning at
430 having two hours straight intense seeking of
Jesus from 430 to 630 he has a
little family of three and they get up
at 630 and he's already had two hours
with God before then and his eldest boy
who's I think about six said to him
recently dad I see you go into your
prayer place a lot you spend a lot
of time with God I think it's time
I did that I need to go I
need to have a little prayer place where
I get alone with you so I can
be like you how would you like that
how would you like your son to say
that to you it's called favor but it's
got a price now I don't wake at
half past four because I'm often not asleep
till half past four I'm up half of
the night that's just how I am don't
get don't have condemnation come on you because
that isn't God's way with you but do
have time I have intense time with God
in my time table each one of us
is different we're not cookie cutters God's more
brilliant than that and wise and wouldn't it
be boring wouldn't it be boring Johnny if
you and I were just exactly the same
like we'd be boring I like you because
you've got blue eyes mine are green yeah
and he likes me because I got green
see it's anyway that's that's just Johnny and
I having our thing up here that's alright
it all it all originated with the Holy
Spirit's all his problem if you have any
problems with it where was I God I
don't have a clue where was I does
anybody know what did you last write down
what was it fiber comes with a price
yes but that's not where my notes were
ah we're in the song of Solomon that's
all I need to do here right I'm
right with you right now we go on
I sleep but my heart is awake now
it is the voice of my beloved he
knocks on the door saying she talks she
was already in bed and the voice of
the beloved knocks on the door of her
bedroom and he says open for me my
sister my love my dove my perfect one
this is Jesus talking to us for my
head is covered with dew my locks with
the drops of the night now her reaction
is the equivalent of what we sometimes can
do to the Holy Spirit's promptings to us
what does she say remember it's song of
Solomon chapter 5 she says now he's knocking
on the door she's in bed he wants
to come in and she says I have
taken off my robe how can I put
it on again I've already washed my feet
how can I get them dirty by getting
out again and walking to the door to
open it my beloved put his hand by
the latch of the door she just saw
his hand and her heart yearned for him
oh I haven't opened it when he wanted
it but I saw his hand and I
yearned for him so I will get up
so in her timetable she says I arose
to open for my beloved and my hands
dripped with my fingers with liquid on the
handles of the lock and I opened for
my beloved but my beloved had turned away
and was gone I called him but he
gave no answer what's Jesus saying to us
what's God saying to us something profound in
our intense desire to have Jesus in an
intimate relationship with him I have a whole
message called God's silences can't give it obviously
just tell you I have one believe me
by now you can believe me because you
listen to me by the hour so you
know that I have stuff by the hour
and in that message in that profound message
of God's silences I refer in one of
the points to this one here when the
Holy Spirit prompts you and me stop now
what you're doing listen to my voice go
to my word obey do
you know what he gives you when you
disobey the promptings of the Holy Spirit he
gives you his silent treatment yeah that's the
reward because he's teaching you his ways and
he's disciplining you and so then you scream
out in your need oh God help me
I can't stand this I can't take this
any longer silence what did the verse in
Isaiah say I called but you didn't answer
and now you're calling and I'm not answering
that's a verse in Isaiah I don't know
whether I gave it to you it's Isaiah
65 verse 12 Isaiah 65 when I called
you did not answer when I spoke you
did not listen so I'm now giving you
silence does this give you understanding of some
of why you have unanswered prayer when
the Shulamite maiden got up and couldn't stand
it that her beloved had gone she went
out in the street in the night looking
saying where is my beloved where is my
beloved I can't bear it that I can't
find him and when the um when the
others asked her why are you so upset
that you can't find your beloved oh she
answers in verse 10 oh if you only
knew what he was like my beloved is
white and ruddy chief among ten thousand his
mouth is most sweet yes he is altogether
lovely this is my beloved and this is
my friend verse 16 when Jesus doesn't answer
you because you know you didn't obey his
promptings are you so desperate that you say
I don't want to go on living until
I can hear your voice again many nights
alone since February the 24th of this year
when God took my beloved sweetheart of 65
years marriage took him to heaven to be
with Jesus he was 90 many nights alone
after having him always beside me in the
bed I just say Holy Spirit speak to
me it's all I want is to hear
your beautiful voice I don't care a scrap
or a wreck what you say it doesn't
matter I just want to hear your voice
just speak to me Holy Spirit Jesus I
love you Jesus I you the lover of
my soul I adore you I love you
precious beautiful Jesus Holy Spirit will speak to
you when you've got that kind of passion
this morning I was telling you about the
little song Isn't He Wonderful and I made
up 15 words remember and I was looking
for the words I made up to the
song Isn't He Isn't Jesus my Lord Wonderful
that one so these are what and I
thought if I can just get enough words
that are different from wonderful with the same
syncopation I can sing 15 different ways to
Jesus and these are what I've got Isn't
He Wonderful Isn't He Marvelous Isn't He Powerful
Isn't He Adorable Isn't He Beautiful Isn't He
Desirable Isn't He All Fulfilling Isn't He Full
Of Love Isn't He So Awesome Isn't He
Majesty Isn't He Magnificent Isn't He My Lover
God Isn't Me He My Best Friend Isn't
He All Sufficient Else Should I That's My
Love Song For Jesus Hallelujah You Don't Have
To Have Dull Love Times With Jesus He
Loves All This Little Child Like Stuff When
You're Madly In Love With Jesus
He All This
Little Like Stuff When You're
Love With Jesus Loves This Little Child When
You're In Love With Jesus
He Loves All This
Little Stuff When
You're Madly Love Jesus Stuff In Love
With Jesus Loves This Stuff You're
Madly Jesus He When You're Madly In Love
With Loves When You're
Madly Jesus When You're
Madly In Love With Jesus He Loves All
Stuff When You're Madly In Love With Jesus
He Loves All This Stuff When You're Madly
In Love With Jesus He When You're Madly
In Love Stuff When
Madly In With With When You're
Madly Jesus Loves All When Madly In With
Jesus He Loves All This Stuff
When You're
Madly All When You're Madly In Love
With Jesus He You're Madly Loves
When You're In
Love With Jesus He You're Madly With Jesus
He Loves All This Stuff When
You're In Love With Jesus Loves When You're
Loves Loves Stuff When You're Madly
In Love With Jesus He alone.
There was one other person, and that was
when I say, I was alone day after
day in a little tiny room that was
more like a cubicle.
I mean, you had to go outside to
change your mind.
It was that small.
I'd said goodbye to Lauren Cunningham.
We'd been in dual leadership all through that
time in Japan.
Said goodbye to my precious darling husband, went
home back to America.
All the YWAMers left, and Kalafi Moala, a
Tongan, was the leader at that time, and
he was the only one that I knew
at all that I could speak to, that
could speak English and not Japanese, and that
I could communicate to him.
But being the leader of a lot of
other workers, he was very, very involved and
wasn't available to me.
So, and I understood all that, and I
had, God had told me that I was
to stay on for another whole week in
Japan and get on a train and go
way up north to a bunch of missionaries,
pioneering, lonely bunch of missionaries in Japan, and
minister to them.
That was the purpose.
And I had to wait a day or
two before I couldn't get there on my
own, and I couldn't speak a word of
Japanese.
So, Kalafi had to come with me, and
he had to leave all his responsibilities.
So, for days, I was alone in this
tiny little room, couldn't speak a word.
I mean, go out in the marketplace, literally,
if you knew Japan.
Anybody been to Japan?
Okay, you know what I'm talking about.
Millions of Japanese are coming and going everywhere
all the time, right?
Just if, in the marketplace like this.
Train stations are going, and there's millions of
people all around and everything.
And so, I was away in my room,
and I thought, well, what will I do?
I thought, oh well, I'll sing worship songs
to Jesus.
I hadn't started singing worship songs to Jesus
long, and I came under intense spiritual warfare.
It's not wise, nor right, nor I'm going
to divulge the purpose of the satanic attack
upon me, but it was the greatest wrestling
match I have ever had in my 87
years with the powers of darkness who attacked
my mind.
Not my body, my mind.
I knew it was satanic, and I started
doing normal spiritual warfare.
That normal spiritual warfare, I went on and
on and on, and I thought, well, I
have never been in such a prolonged battle
in my entire life when the enemy is
not letting up for one second.
And I am coming against him with the
shed blood of Jesus.
I've got all the scriptures out.
I'm quoting the It Is Writtens.
I am standing, stand and do warfare.
I was doing it.
I taught on spiritual warfare all over the
world.
I was doing everything I knew, and it
wouldn't let up.
I don't know whether it was Satan himself,
or it was one of his huge principalities.
I don't know, but it was no demons.
It was not on the level of demonic
at all.
I was pounding my mind minute after minute
after minute after minute after minute, and I'm
just standing, standing, standing, resisting, resisting, resisting.
It went on for hours.
And I knew one of us was going
to have to give up and get weary,
and it wasn't going to be me.
That I knew.
So I just kept declaring the blood, the
name, the word.
It's the spirit, the name, the word, and
the blood.
The spirit, the name, the word, and the
blood.
Quoting scriptures, just going at it, at it,
at it, at it.
And the principality or the boss himself obviously
got tired and got the message, she's not
going to quit.
Now, why I tell you that is this.
When it was all over, and I could
actually relax for a moment.
Talk about intense warfare.
No one with me, nobody to share it
with, and I just, just was relaxed.
And I thought, what will I do that
will make the enemy really mad?
Because I'm going to pay him back.
And do you know what I did?
I said, Holy Spirit, I want to sing
a new love song to Jesus that I've
never sung before.
Will you please help me?
Just give me something, something in relation to
lovership with Jesus, because nothing will make the
devil more mad than you praising and singing
worship songs to Jesus.
He can't stand that, because he hates Jesus,
and he hates you.
He hates our guts.
I don't believe in saying things by heart.
And this is what came.
My lover God, you're more to me than
any other one could be.
My lover God, your love for me surpasses
any love I see.
Complete fulfillment is union with you, my spirit
with your spirit, the fusion of two.
My lover God, you're more to me than
any other love could be.
And that's what came out of it.
Next point.
Desperate prayer for a revelation of our hearts.
Now, tonight, we are going much deeper than
we did this morning.
And every point that is coming here is
going deeper.
Just prepare yourself for it.
And I'm not cutting back or short-changing
you from anything God has given me.
This one is now desperate prayer for a
revelation of our hearts.
Desperate praying for a revelation of our heart.
Okay?
It's not complicated.
Got it?
Jeremiah 17 verse 9.
The heart is deceitful above all things and
desperately wicked.
Who can know it?
That's a question.
That question is answered in 2 Chronicles 6
.30. Only God knows it.
Then hear from heaven your dwelling place and
forgive and forgive to everyone and give to
everyone according to all his ways whose heart
you know for you alone know the hearts
of the sons of men.
2 Chronicles 6.30. Underline it.
Try and memorize it.
Never forget it.
It'll be life-changing.
Verse 10 of the same chapter.
I, the Lord, search the heart.
I test the mind, even to give every
man according to his ways, according to the
fruit of his doings.
Okay.
I have a question for you, and I
want you to answer.
God, not me, but I want a response.
Have you honestly, before God, ever seriously taken
time to ask God in desperate earnestness and
said to God, I will not let you
go till you answer me and show me
my heart as you alone can see it?
Is there anybody in the room?
One, two, three, four, five.
Six.
Okay.
I want a response from the six people,
please.
Did you get, put your hands up, the
six people, please, again, who put their hands
up.
Did you get, I'm going to ask you
one by one, did you get an answer?
Did it come?
Thank you.
Did you get an answer?
The man with his hand up.
You got an answer?
It came?
Yes.
You got an answer?
Yes.
Did you get an answer?
Did he answer you?
I'm talking about, did you see your heart
as God sees it?
That's what I'm talking about.
Yes.
Seven.
Eight, nine.
Did you get an answer, those at the
back?
Okay.
I want you to describe, I'm not asking
what he showed you, that's not my business.
What was your reaction to his response?
It's all I want to hear from you.
Okay, anybody?
You with the blue shirt, the lady.
Her heart was
far darker than whatever she had any understanding
that it was.
Okay.
Does, does that, would that be what the
rest of you saw or was there something
deeper?
Yes.
What was yours?
That's not according to this.
That's something else altogether.
This is the heart is deceitful above all
things and desperately wicked who can know it.
It's that.
You had, you, he was, he was giving
you encouragement.
Yes, but when, when he shows the heart
as he sees it and he's, it's not
a moment of encouragement.
It's, it's never, it's encouraging that he's met
us, but it's never pretty.
That was encouragement.
Okay.
Now, uh, were the rest of you all
just like lovely little encouraging moments?
Please keep your hands up.
I want, I want to get, what was
yours?
Yes.
She saw the darkness and had no idea
that it was a doubt.
Yes, yes.
I don't.
Was it a revelation of something negative you,
that you saw or was it in one
of these encouraging things, which is not what
I'm talking about?
It was negative.
Ah, it, so you had the drip feed
method because it took six months, right?
You had, that's, that's the drip feed.
It took six months, but it happened.
I understand.
Thank you.
I'm talking about when he does surgery, open
heart surgery.
That's what we're talking about here.
Now, how many hands go up?
Who's had open heart surgery?
Yes, sir.
At the back, sir.
Any comment that you could help with this?
I'm sorry.
I can't hear you.
What can anybody tell me what he's saying?
Johnny, please.
What did he say, Johnny?
Oh, thank you.
Thank you.
Thank you, Johnny.
Thank you.
Thank you, dear brother.
I'm sorry my hearing isn't as good as
it should be.
I'm 87.
Just give me a break.
He got a revelation that his heart, as
God saw it, he had the potential to
do any sin of all the things that
he thought were gross sins.
He had the potential to do it.
Was that right, dear?
Yes, thank you.
Thank you.
That's the kind of thing.
Now, what about these people over here at
the back?
Did you have heart surgery?
Something about the scalpel, Johnny.
Give me a break.
It was like God just put a scalpel
in his heart.
His heart, yes.
He had a specific area of hurt that
he was going to do surgery on.
Of hurt?
Is that what he said, hurt?
What was it then?
Can you help me at the front here?
Of pruning.
Oh, that makes sense.
Yes, yes.
Pruning away, cutting away things.
That's right, that's it.
Okay, that's it.
Now, God wants not seven or eight people.
He wants everybody in this building who's here
tonight in the will of God.
Are you here in the will of God?
Yes.
All right.
He wants you to cry out in desperation,
show me my heart as you see it,
and be willing to wrestle with God until
it comes.
The first time I prayed that prayer, I
was in a prayer meeting with my husband
and three evangelists, and we were praying for
the lost souls in our city, in our
home.
God had given me the whole vision for
this, and these other men had all said,
yes, that's absolutely right, sure, we're going to
do it, we'll come to your home.
Three evangelists, my husband and me, and for,
I think it was two years, every Monday
night, we would spend from 7 o'clock
to 11.30 at night, four and a
half hours, protracted, crying out to God for
the lost souls in our city.
And in the middle of one of those
prayers, now get this, I'm in the middle
of a prayer, praying for lost souls in
the city of Auckland.
And I stopped, it was obviously the Holy
Spirit, but I didn't know, but I stopped
and I said, God, would you show me
the motive of my heart in all this?
I just heard a prompting, a nudge of
the Holy Spirit to stop, that's all I
knew, and I asked that prayer, cooperated with
the Holy Spirit, and immediately, without, I'd hardly
got the prayer out of my lips, where
I was overcome, devastated, he showed me the
spiritual pride of my heart, in, because of
what I was doing, and what, I'd been
given the vision for this, I'd called these
men, they'd all cooperated, we'd been doing it
for two years, and I was proud that
I was an intercessor with these men of
God, praying every, I think it was every
second Monday night, for two years, spiritual pride,
I was touching the glory.
And I was devastated, absolutely devastated.
I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed, and all
that could come out of my mouth, the
other men, my husband and the three evangelists,
just listened, and all they could hear, they
could hear me sobbing, and all they could
hear was pride, pride, pride, pride, they didn't
know what about, just pride.
Wisely, they left me with God, they didn't
try to mother me or smother me, and
don't you dare mother or smother, when somebody
else is under the Holy Spirit's convicting power,
you'll mess it up, keep out of the
way, leave them with God, let him do
his business.
So, after the longest time, I stopped crying,
and all I could plead was mercy, mercy,
mercy, mercy, how could you have mercy with
all that pride?
It was absolutely life-changing.
Okay, that was the first time.
Second time, it was about six weeks before
I was going around the world the first
time, Lauren Cunningham opened up the world to
me as a Bible teacher, and he was
the one that made the way in everything,
and it was about six weeks before I
was to go to seven nations of the
world, was my first trip out of New
Zealand, as an unknown housewife, I went from
14 years of intensive preparation, hidden away, and
then opened to seven nations, and it was
about six weeks before I was to go
around the world, and I was driving my
car one day, and I could hear the
Holy Spirit convicting me of pride over something
I'd said and I immediately confessed, sensitive to
the Holy Spirit, immediately confessed, repented of the
Lord, received his forgiveness, went on.
That happened three times in one week, and
at the end of the third time, I
said, okay, okay God, three times in one
week, I'm convicted of sin of pride.
Therefore, this is just the fruit, there must
be a root of pride that I know
nothing about, and have to have a revelation
on, because I can't repent of what I
can't see, and your word says you only
know the hearts of the children of men.
So, I got down on my knees, I
took the phone off the hook, I was
desperate, desperate to have a revelation of the
root from which this fruit was coming.
I locked the front door of the house,
my husband was away in business, my children
were at school, I was not going to
have any interference whatever, front door, phone off.
You understand?
I'm alone with God.
I'm down in front of a chair in
our living room in Auckland, New Zealand, and
I kneel there and I say, I understand
this verse, you only know that my heart,
I can't see it, you can.
So, and you came once before when I
asked, so will you come again now, please,
and show me my heart as you said,
give me the, what I desperately need is
revelation and conviction so I can repent and
get free, and have a little humility around
here.
And I thought he would answer me straight
away like he did years before.
Nothing happened after I prayed that prayer and
waited, I just thought it would come, nothing
happened, silence.
I said, okay, what did they do in
the word, always go to the word, what
did they do in the word when they
didn't get an answer?
And I thought, Jacob, that's right, he wrestled.
Okay, I don't think I've done this before,
but this is, I'm in a new sphere
and stage with you, but that's okay.
I'll wrestle, Jacob wrestled.
So I said, okay, God, here I come.
I need a revelation of my heart as
only you can see it.
I don't, I can't find, you're not talking
to me and I am desperate and I'm
going to wrestle with you now and I
will not let you go.
I will not let you go.
And I went and sobbed, not with revelation,
with intense desire.
And I waited, nothing happened, nothing, silence.
I went back to what happened in the
word?
What did, who got more desperate than that?
I thought, Moses, see, I knew the word.
I knew the word.
You know the word, you'll know what to
do.
And I thought, Moses went further than that.
He went further than that.
He pleaded God's character to himself.
I know you're holy.
I know you're righteous.
I know they're sinful, but God, you're not
only holy and you're not only righteous, but
you're a God of mercy.
And I plead your mercy over these people.
And it's not in your interests to wipe
them out, because what will the heathen think?
That you couldn't bring the children of Israel
through the wilderness?
Your name and character's at stake.
So I thought, right, I'll do that for
myself.
So round three.
And I wept again and I spoke to
God just exactly like Moses spoke to God
over the children of Israel.
I said, it's not going to be in
your interest.
You're sending me around the world.
I can't go with a heart that's full
of pride.
It's got to be absolutely, I've got to
be full of humility.
How can I represent you?
And you can see it and I can't.
And it's not going to be in your
interest not to tell me.
And I wrestled again.
I will not let you go.
I'm here for the duration, if that's what
it takes.
And then it came.
Woo, then it came.
Relief that he'd answered me.
But oh, what I saw.
I had been involved with so much evangelism.
Jim and I had, with three other men,
had started Teen Challenge.
The whole of the work of Teen Challenge
in New Zealand was started by my husband
and myself and three others.
We were already involved with every kind of
evangelism out of our church.
I was involved in going around the parks
and streets witnessing.
I'd been up and down my street.
I'd given tracts to everybody in my street.
I'd prayed.
I'd spoken.
I was evangelism.
And because we were such loyal, devoted church
members, are you hearing me?
Don't tell me you don't belong to a
local church and it's not the will of
God.
I don't buy that for a minute.
God doesn't matter what you're out there in.
There's a place where you need to be
submitted and under the covering of spiritual leadership
in a church.
And we were up to our dandruff.
That's beyond your eyebrows.
My husband was an elder there.
Every time the church door opened, we were
there.
But we were out in the marketplace as
well.
Because listen, Jesus was in both.
We learned that this morning.
Right?
Jesus was no more in the temple than
he was in the marketplace.
He was no more in the marketplace than
in the temple.
It's the both.
Are you going to be like him?
Are you going to do what he did?
Like he did?
Are you going to have a church home
then?
Are you going to be radical out in
the marketplace?
Good.
You're getting there.
You're not there yet because it isn't proven
in your life, but you're getting there.
Did you get that one?
Are you still awake?
Yes.
Miracle of miracles.
Yes.
Thank you.
Thank you, dear.
So, the revelation came and this was what
it was.
I would report back to my precious, beautiful
pastor, lovely man of God, who released him
and me completely to this outdoor evangelism stuff
and everything that we did and all that
that was outside the church curriculum.
But he would want us to come back
and report as a point of just our
submission and he wanted to know what we
were doing.
And I would report the souls that I
was leading to Christ, the many, and the
ways it would be done.
And he would be interested in listening.
And the Holy Spirit showed me that my
motive was absolutely mixed when I would report
to, not when I was out amongst the
souls.
That wasn't any conviction at all then.
But when I would come back and report
to the pastor, there was a mixed motive.
I wanted the pastor to be impressed with
me as a soul winner.
And it was stinking, horrible pride.
And God showed me I was touching the
glory that belonged to Jesus alone.
I was absolutely wiped out.
I sobbed and sobbed and sobbed and sobbed
as though my being, there would not be
a tear left in my body.
And I was absolutely changed.
And then the Holy Spirit said to me,
I'm not through with you yet.
I said, what more?
Keep going.
He said, I want you to go to
your pastor and tell him exactly what I
have showed you here today.
I said, yes, sir.
Made an appointment.
I had to wait.
Remember, was agony waiting the three days before
I could get the appointment.
Went into a study and told him everything
I've told you.
He was an older man and he just
leaned forward quietly.
Man of few words, man of great depth.
And he just said the sentence as he
listened quietly to me.
Few are this serious about Christian things.
That's all he said.
But it was terrifically encouraging.
That's all he said.
You might've thought, well, wasn't that enough?
That was all I needed to hear.
He heard, he understood, and he knew I'd
come.
Now, does the telling of this
experience give you a desperate desire to know
the truth about yourself?
Let me make a statement here.
Never forget this.
When a person says to me, I want
truth, I say, are you willing for a
revelation of your heart as God sees it?
What?
What did you say?
I said, you heard me.
We're only as longing and as desperate for
truth as we are to know our hearts
as God sees it.
Because when he gives the revelation of what
only he can see, it's his kindness to
bring us to repentance so that we can
be more like Jesus.
Now, we're going to move now into the
application.
This is not the end of my teaching
at all.
I would be, I would have another 30
minutes to finish.
What God put in my heart, now I
have a terrific conflict, I have a conflict
here.
When I look at what I can't tell
you and what I went through to get,
to give this to you, and what it
means, I'm torn between submission to leadership, which
I understand, and what I've been through to
not give.
Jesus help me.
Oh, how can I not give this?
When I'm submitted to headship, Holy
Spirit speak to me.
Yes.
Well, if, if I can just even just
get the headlines.
I agree.
Thank you.
But you can see how seriously I took
your note, dear.
Yes.
What I'm coming to is so crucial.
You'll know when I come to it.
You'll understand.
You'll understand when I come to it.
And it's the last point.
It's the last point.
What time is it?
935?
Yes.
You guys okay with it?
Yeah!
Okay.
Let's just...
This is for the serious, I guess, tonight,
right?
Yeah.
So, that's all of us.
So, Joy's got this final part.
And then I...
There's an application to be handed out, right?
Yes.
That can just be handed out.
And then there's a great handout.
Let's all pray for Joy right now.
That she could make it to the end
with her health.
Would you...
Let's just pray that the Holy Spirit would
touch her back.
And she could make it.
And give us the last truths that'll change
our lives.
I'm not...
Let's go for it.
Let's pray for Joy.
I'm not worried about her back.
Let's pray.
That she feels so strong.
And so good.
Okay.
I'm not worried.
Okay.
Thank you.
Sit down.
Thank you.
Okay.
Go for it.
Right here.
And you'll understand when I come into this
why I was in such conflict.
The fifth point is desperate prayer for others
who are in desperate need.
Desperate prayer for others in desperate need.
Jeremiah 22.16 Jeremiah 22.16 He judged
the cause of the poor and the needy.
Then it was well.
And then this amazing statement comes, a question
comes in the Word of God.
Was judging the cause of the poor and
the needy?
Was not this knowing me, says the Lord?
Part of knowing God is desperate prayer for
the poor and the needy.
The Word says so.
There's a ministry called Life International.
James and Betty Robertson are on Christian television
networks, plural, all over, with their television programs,
and they are calling desperately every single...
They're on five nights a week all over
the networks.
And they're calling desperate prayers for desperate needs,
desperately to give them money.
What for?
Three things.
Drilling water wells in many nations where the
only water is horribly polluted and thousands and
thousands and thousands are dying because the only
water they have is desperately polluted water where
animals are in, where they're defecating in, human
beings are in and defecating in.
It's filthy, it's full of poison, and that's
all they can give their children, and their
children get ill and die in their arms.
And he is calling for money unashamedly.
Why not?
He has the heart of God, he and
his wife, Betty.
And they're calling for us to join with
them.
And do you know where he gets his
knowledge from?
The missionaries around the world.
They've gone, he and Betty, around the world,
found the missionaries, who are genuine, and who
are meeting the needs of the people, but
they don't have the money.
They can't drill a water well.
It costs, what is it for a well?
$4,500 or something to drill a water
well, just to get fresh water.
And this year, right now, the Robesons are
committed to getting 500 more wells drilled in
32 different nations to people who are starving
and dying with polluted water.
I tell you, this is God, and it's
on God's heart.
I have the great privilege of not only
praying for them, but giving financially to them
every week.
It's the least I can do.
Then for twice a year, they send out
the terrific challenge for the water wells.
Get this, 32 different nations, 500 more wells.
Isn't that colossal, their vision?
And they believe in God for the money
to come from you and me.
Then they shift, once they've done that for
twice a year, then they shift, and they
put out the call for millions of starving
children who have absolutely not a crumb of
food to eat.
They're in areas where there is no vegetation,
there is no farming, there's just if the
ground is absolutely parched, they show photos of
it, there's not a tree standing, there's not
a blade of grass, and they're just starving,
there's nothing, and their children dying in their
arms.
And even when they get into clinics, the
children are so far gone that anything they
can give them is beyond help.
And so they get a bowl of like
a very intensely nutritious kind of porridge with
a whole lot of nutrients in them, and
they send this out, and they've raised money
for little red plastic bowls, and you see
the children by the thousands lining up to
get their little bowls as it's scooped.
That's their only meal a day, as it's
given from the networks.
Then the third thing they do is building
houses and orphanages for the families who have
no homes.
Then they show you what they call a
home, and it's just a shack with some
leaves and, oh, it's not even worth calling
a house at all.
But it's their only form of existence.
Okay, now, Lamentations 2, verses 11 to 12
says, My eyes are spent with weeping, this
is the prophet Jeremiah, my soul is in
tumult, my heart is poured out in grief.
This is what God's wanting for you and
me to do.
Because of the destruction of the daughter of
my people, because infants and babes faint in
the streets of the city, they cry to
their mothers, where is the bread and wine,
as they faint like wounded men in the
streets of the city as their life is
poured out on their mother's bosom.
You see, if I can't match the word
of God to what I'm telling you, then
I don't tell you.
Listen to this one, Proverbs 24, verse 11.
I'm now talking about the millions of children
that right now, as we sit here, are
in the womb of mothers who right now
are planning to kill the babies.
Millions.
Now, as we sit, what are we going
to do?
What are we going to do?
Nothing?
I can't tell you how many times when
my darling husband and I, interceding for America,
and interceding for the babies in the womb,
that we've cried out, my God, we've said,
right now, sovereignly, right across this nation, at
this moment, bring deep conviction to every single
woman that is planning to kill her baby
in the womb.
Praying desperate prayers, united together, believing, and we
know millions stopped because we prayed, in faith,
in Jesus' name.
In faith, in Jesus' name.
Is it the will of God that they
be aborted?
Is it?
Is it the will of God that we
rise up and cry out to God that
they will be given an alternative?
Don't heap judgment on them.
We've prayed, God, show the women, show them
that there's another way, either to bring the
baby to full birth and give it to
the millions of mothers who are wanting to
adopt the child, or keep the child themselves,
but show them for their own sake that
they're going to go into mental anguish when
they realize afterwards they've killed their own flesh
and blood, their babies that murdered it.
That realization comes to every mother who's aborted
a child later, and they go into mental
anguish.
You can save all that with intercession.
I'm calling for you tonight.
Now you wonder why I wanted to get
to this point, because it's a passion of
my life.
It's a passion of my life.
I'm crying at all the time.
Stop!
Almighty God, you who made and created the
sun and the moon and the stars, and
with your spoken word created a universe, you
can speak to a million, millions of women
right now who are thinking of aborting a
child, and you can say to them, don't
do this.
And they'll hear your voice, and they'll heed
it, and they'll stop.
You can be the intercessor who cries out,
and God's hand is moved, and the babies
are born.
Do you know that the man, James Robson,
who heads this ministry, was a child who
was conceived in the womb of his mother
through a rape, whose mother was raped went
through hell over that raping experience, and she
was about to abort the child because of
being raped, and she went to a doctor
who happened to be a Christian, and he
said, I will not abort this child.
And the Christian said to his mother, there's
a way out for you.
You either keep it, or it can be
this child in your womb.
You can keep it yourself, and he'll be
your son, or and his mother was 42
at the time.
Raped at 42.
It was all to do with a doctor
and a nurse, and I don't know, something
to do with she was the nurse, and
he was the patient or something, and he
rose up and raped her.
It was just ghastly.
Anyway, she decided, she changed her mind because
a Christian doctor spoke to her and said,
I will not do this.
And she brought forth this man, James Robinson,
and I don't know, listen to me, I
don't know a spiritual leader in America today
who is more out on the cutting edge
of a, uniting the body of Christ together,
as Jesus prayed in John 23, for unity.
I don't know a spiritual leader who is
more broken in his heart and more humble
and more loving.
I don't know a spiritual leader who is
calling more for the poor and the needy.
I don't know a man nearer to the
heart of God in spiritual leadership than this
man.
Proverbs 24, 11, deliver those who are drawn
toward death and hold back those stumbling to
the slaughter.
If that doesn't describe babes in the womb,
I don't know what does.
And then there are the children and the
young women held captive as slaves in sex
trafficking.
Whoo!
Boy, I'll have to have some more water
to just...
The burden is so great.
The need is so great.
Oh, hell is so horrible.
Satan has spewed out the most vile, violent,
heinous, horrible stuff beyond human comprehension in creating
into the minds of men that they can
get sexual gratification through holding as children slaves.
Do you know that they're held in little
rooms like cubicles and they lie on a
mat and can be, can have a forced
into ghastly sexual acts.
Imprisoned.
Can't escape.
Can't get out.
Nowhere to go.
Nobody to help them.
Violated emotionally.
They're like, they're treated worse than animals.
And there are millions of them.
Are you hearing me?
What are you doing about it?
Tell me anybody in this room that has
this passion for the sex trafficking.
Just to encourage me.
What?
Less than a quarter of you.
No wonder we need the message.
Listen to this.
This is as update as about 10 days
ago.
I was watching in my home Daystar Christian
Television Network.
And I was hearing the first hand reports
of two of the daughters of the leaders
of the Daystar Television Network.
Marcus and Joni Land.
Their two daughters were among those and others
on the staff of the Daystar Network.
There were about five of them.
His wife, two daughters and three other women.
How many is that?
Six.
And they went to India and got a
Christian missionary who was involved with the reaching
the women, young women who are held prisoners
captive in sex trafficking who cannot escape.
They're absolutely like in a prison.
And they went and found this missionary and
he was able to take them right into
one of the leading red light districts in
India.
Now this is right up to date.
They'd just come back and were giving the
report on Christian Television Network.
And this is what they found.
They went right into the brothel.
They saw everything.
They had hidden cameras that were able to
captivate any.
We saw the women, the young women This
is so ghastly.
This is so unbelievable.
Young women are put in cubicles.
One of the women said, you couldn't call
it a small room.
They said it wasn't wider.
And one of them went like this with
their arm.
It wasn't wider than my body and one
arm.
Like in a cubicle and there's a bed
and the intense heat.
No air conditioning.
No fan.
Intense dreadful heat.
They were just pouring down perspiration.
They are in these cubicles servicing sexually 60
customers a day.
You wouldn't treat an animal like that.
You wouldn't put an animal through that.
And here's the worst part.
If that's not bad enough and I saw
this with my own eyes 10 days ago.
One of the young women talked to one
of the girls because through the missionary they
got right in.
And they talked right to the girls and
they said this.
We love you.
We've come from America to tell you that
God loves you and you don't have to
live like this.
And he's got a way of escape.
This man who brought us here is a
man of God.
He's a pure, holy humble man of God.
And he has a house that has been
given to him by other Christians.
And it's a beautiful home.
And you can have your own bedroom.
And you can walk out free today with
this man.
Because the authorities were not looking at the
time.
They got it all at the exact time
where they could just get the girls alone.
And they said you can walk free today.
He'll house you in this work.
Beautiful women of God work with him.
He can be trusted and they can.
They love you.
They've got the housing.
You don't have to do a thing.
They'll feed you.
They'll clothe you.
They'll teach you skills.
How you can earn a trade for yourself.
You can be free today.
Will you come with us?
I can't stand it.
I can't bear it.
What was I heard?
The girl looked back and said I don't
believe you.
Nobody could be that kind.
Oh God.
God.
It's another way I've got to pray.
I've got to pray now.
You touch the hearts of the ones that
when we do go that they'll believe.
They'll believe.
God only you can make them believe.
To have them trapped and they won't come
out because they don't believe.
Jesus.
Reveal yourself to them.
Show them yourself in dreams and visions like
you're doing to the Muslims.
Show them you are the way.
You are the truth.
You are the life.
Give them dreams and visions and then tell
them Jesus in the dreams.
My servants are coming to tell you to
go to freedom.
You'll have to do it Holy Spirit.
Oh I can't bear it.
That girl stayed there when she could have
been.
She could have been set free.
Oh God.
I can't.
I can't bear it.
Do you know why she couldn't believe?
Because to get in to be caught in
the traffic, sex trafficking a man came to
her and said I will give you a
house.
I will give you food.
I'll give you clothing.
I'll look after you.
And said made it out that he loved
her and the young girl believed.
Believed.
She trusted the man and he lied.
And he lied.
And that's all she's heard is lies from
men that she can't trust.
So some American comes and says we've got
it.
And she thinks she's just the same as
the others.
That's why it's got to have a revelation
of Jesus in dreams and visions because they'll
stay trapped as prisoners as objects of
men's lust.
And you came to give them life and
to give it to them more abundantly.
You came for them to be beautiful women
of God.
You came for them to be like these
beautiful young women here sitting here listening to
the word of God and the ways of
God in the spirit of God.
Why shouldn't they have that opportunity?
Oh God, speak to your church.
Break our hearts with what breaks your heart.
And cause us to stand in the gap
until they believe because they say oh my,
the Jesus you speak about, he came to
me in a vision like you've done to
millions of Muslims who now are believing.
Do it to those caught in the sex
trap.
Thank you that you will.
If you brought me here to nothing else
but weep and break my heart and pray
that prayer, it was worth tonight to me.
Psalm 82 verses 3 to 4, defend the
poor and the fatherless.
Do justice to the afflicted and needy.
Deliver the poor and the needy.
Free them from the hand of the wicked.
That's if you need Bible verses.
I told you there's a verse to back
up everything I'm telling you.
And there's one more burden that's as great
on my heart as the one I've just
told you.
God enabled me to get it out.
The nation that I'm far more burdened for,
far more burdened than any other nation is
North Korea.
Do you know what's happening in North Korea?
Out in the forest there's a concentration camp.
And it's full of people.
And their crime is that they didn't bow
to the communist regime.
That's their crime.
Nothing else.
And they're locked up and they're tortured and
it's been going on for years and years
and years.
They hang them up by their feet and
drop them down like this with ropes.
And they hang with ropes around their feet
to the ceiling for days on end.
And they cry out the people in the
torture to die and cannot die.
They have no hope.
They've never seen anything but this.
They've been locked up, some of them since
children.
But two, two only have escaped.
Everything I'm telling you has been documented and
shown on television.
I'm speaking gospel truth, every detail.
There's no exaggeration.
If anything, it's understated.
They're tortured.
They're kept there.
They know nothing about the outside world.
And God sovereignly allowed a young boy of
about eight to escape and one older man.
And that's all the humans that have ever
come out of this concentration camp that's been
going on for years and years and years
to escape.
And they've come out to the world and
told what's going on.
The communist government have been challenged by this
and have been asked what they are going
to do about that concentration camp out in
the forest.
And they have said there's no such thing.
That's their answer.
There isn't one.
Lies.
Can you hear that and not be moved?
Can you hear that and not get a
desperate burden for those people being tortured in
there year after year after year screaming to
die and can't die?
No crime.
Innocent.
I have cried as though my life depended
upon it to God for years.
For years.
For this day.
For God.
I've said, God, just turn on an earthquake.
You can do that just like that.
You've only just got to open your mouth
and like that and have an earthquake and
they can all just have an earthquake and
they can all get out and escape.
He hasn't answered that prayer yet.
I've prayed everything I can think and know
to God to get these people free.
It is a huge burden on my heart.
I can only discharge it, weeping and weeping
before the Lord, believing that somehow, somewhere, someway,
someday, God will break through and release those
people.
I give it to you.
He told me to tell you.
Psalm 100 and I'm going to read Psalm
79 verse 11.
Listen to it.
It's in relation to this burden.
These are the scriptures he's given me.
Psalm 79 verse 11.
Let the groans of the prisoners come before
you according to your great power preserve those
doomed to die.
Does that not say it?
Is that a command or is that a
suggestion?
Let the groans of the prisoners come before
you.
This is how you intercede.
Say this is what your word says.
According to your great power preserve those doomed
to die.
I've got written across my Bible, North Korea.
Another verse.
Psalm 102 verses 18 through 20.
More verses this time.
Psalm 102 18 through 20.
Let this be recorded for a generation to
come so that a people yet unborn may
praise the Lord.
And what is it that the psalmist is
crying out to God?
Let this happen.
What is the happening?
Look.
That he looked, God, looked down from his
holy height from heaven.
The Lord looked at the earth to hear
the groans of the prisoners and to set
free those who were doomed to die.
I've written North Korea again.
Do you need any more scriptures?
Is it plain?
Is it clear?
Is it the word of God?
Is he telling us to get serious about
the poor and the needy?
And these are the, I'm giving you the
most desperate people that I know of on
planet earth.
I don't know any more desperate than the
children.
They show you James Robinson with all the
hidden cameras.
He's got a whole lot of missionaries, a
team of them.
They go through with hidden cameras and they
see the little cubicles with an iron vase
and in the room and all that little
child they take them in 3, 4, 5,
6, 7, 8 and you see a mat
on the floor and bars like this.
They're in a cell this size day after
day being exposed to filthy ghastly stuff
that their little innocent minds never were meant
to even think or hear about.
I can't bear it.
I'll go into sobs again.
I'll have to get off to bed.
Last point very briefly.
I'm not going to do it in full
like I did in the last one.
I'm just going to allude to it and
stop.
This point can also include interceding with desperate
intensity for a spiritual leader who has seriously
failed.
It's too important not to give it to
you, but I will not expand on it.
It's praying desperate prayers for a spiritual leader
who has seriously failed.
Moses interceded for Aaron his brother when God
said after Aaron had built got the golden
calf and put it together God says I'm
through with him.
I don't care what he's been.
The priest and he's been your leader and
he's been your mouthpiece, Moses, but I can't
tolerate a man who built a calf and
cooperate with an idolatry.
I've had him.
And Moses stands in the gap and prays
desperate prayers and Aaron's life is spared.
Exactly the same for Miriam, his sister who
had leprosy because she had touched the Lord's
anointed, which was her brother, and he interceded
for her and not immediately but later she
was healed.
Now I have never heard anybody in my
entire 87 years ever tell you what I'm
going to tell you now.
Never.
I've never read it in a book.
Never heard it.
And I've been there, done that, and heard
them and done that and heard them again.
Moses had no intercessor when God pronounced his
verdict to him.
You shall not go into the promised land.
With all that Moses had put up with
that bunch of idolaters and unbelievers and murmurers
and all the intercession that he'd gone on
behalf of those people and the whole bit,
God said, no, you will not see the
fulfillment of all you've lived for because he
had an uncontrolled tongue and temper.
Three times in Moses' life the thing that
was never dealt with was his uncontrolled temper.
And when he saw the golden calf and
the tablets that God had written with his
own finger and God had made the tablet
of stone himself and written with his own
finger the Ten Commandments, and Moses took what
God's finger had written and the tablet that
God had created and he smashed them down
in anger and had spoken
as no other man or woman face to
face with God.
He knew.
He knew God.
He understood his character and his ways and
despite that he desecrated in front of God
what God had written in anger.
Okay, so God says you've blown it.
And you know what?
I don't read anywhere, I've studied every single
word about Moses' life in depth and in
detail and there is nowhere anywhere that there
was a sign of anyone who stood in
the gap for him and interceded for him
in desperate.
Where was Joshua and Caleb when they heard
this pronouncement?
Where was Joshua and Caleb?
They could have stood stood in the gap
and pled with God like Moses had done
for the children of Israel.
What are you going to do when a
spiritual leader fails badly?
What are you going to do?
Criticize?
Walk away?
Give up on them?
Or are you going to say, God, I
will stand in the gap.
I will pay any price.
I will stand there and I thank you
for that leader.
I thank you for the way I've been
blessed by that life and I will do
anything.
I'll fast.
I'll pray.
I'll wrestle.
I'll groan.
I'm only telling you what I've done.
You can be the one even when God
has said I've given up on that leader
and he's going to die and the leader
knows it because they've heard from God.
God has told me I'm going to die.
God has said that to leaders.
I know because they've told me.
And what will you do?
Say, well, I'll do something about that.
I'll stand in the gap and I'll stay
there till I hear the voice of God
and I'll plead with God.
I'll plead his character over you and I'll
see then what God will say.
I've done it and I've heard God change
his mind and the leaders live.
Will you do that?
Will you be desperate?
Colossians 4 12, Epaphras is one of you
a bond servant of Christ, greets you, always
laboring fervently for you in prayers.
Always laboring fervently for you in prayers.
That was Epaphras.
Nobody ever talks about this saint.
That you may stand perfect and complete in
all the will of God.
Could we have the distribution now of what
I've written for you, for each one of
you.
There should be enough for everybody, should there?
Did we have enough printed?
It's the application of this message.
I want you to look at it now
but I want you to take them home.
It's 10.15. I want you to take
them home.
I want you to pour over it in
front of God.
Say, God, I'm reading this application of this
message tonight in your presence and I want
you to answer the questions that are on
the sheet.
It's God's homework for you.
Put up your hand if you haven't got
one so that you Oh, okay.
They're coming.
I've done the homework for you so that
you can apply these truths to the fullest
extent in your life and fulfill the purpose
of why we've been together today.
Could someone hand me one, please?
Johnny.
Thank you.
Thank you, dear.
Thank you.
I needed that.
I had forgotten that this is more this
applies more to this morning's message than tonight's
message.
It's all related to a burden for lost
souls, which was what this morning was all
about.
So if you weren't here this morning, is
there any way of getting tapes of what,
you can get tapes of what happened this
morning?
Yeah, Joy, it's all going to be online.
Online?
Yeah.
We're going to let everybody know how to
get it.
Okay.
So if you weren't here this morning, we
really had a blast in God, didn't we?
You can get it and then this application
sheet will make more sense to you.
But there was no way that there was
time for the application or the sheets.
I went from till half past four this
afternoon from two o'clock.
Joy, we're going to put up on the
screen how people can get instantly the message
from this afternoon.
Everybody will know.
Yes.
Are you doing that now?
Yeah, they're going back there to type it
in.
Oh, I see.
I see.
You know, there was a whole point here
that we couldn't do tonight because of time.
I haven't even touched on it.
The final point was are you desperate?
But I'm going to give you what the
point was without the teaching because it's too
late for you.
But the whole of the last point was
will you have and get a desperate burden
in the place of prayer from God for
this nation of America, which is in the
absolute pits, pits.
It's never been worse in its entire history.
Never in the entire history of the nation
of America have we been so ripe for
judgment.
And all I can say is there's a
whole message there which I can't give tonight.
But all I can say is this.
If you will get in the place of
prayer and ask God to make you, show
you his mind and his heart over America.
America can be redeemed.
It can be.
And there's because God had, I'm not going
to preach the whole thing so you can
relax.
God has always had a remnant.
You study the word of God.
Take the history of Genesis to Revelation.
God has had a remnant no matter how
bad it was in any nation on the
world at any time.
There was always a little remnant who cried
out to God.
And you can be part of that remnant
that can cause, I believe you can take
this to the bank.
You can do what you like with it.
You can quote me and a lot of
people are not going to agree with me.
That doesn't bother me one instance or change
my mind.
I believe God has shown me there will
be judgment and there will be the greatest
revival that this nation has ever seen.
Vote.
But it doesn't come through clapping.
Not that you were wrong to clap.
You were right to clap.
But it only comes as the remnant.
It will only come that revival will only
come as the remnant get desperate before God
and come before Him and humble themselves and
break and weep and confess sin and change
their ways and stop playing church and we
really do have a move of God every
time we come together.
Because the spiritual leaders have been in the
place of prayer seeking the face of God,
doing and saying only what God says instead
of having a program of men's.
And when there's repentance of all the stuff
that's in the ways of men in the
church and not the ways of God.
When all this change takes place God will
come and He'll pour out His Spirit like
we've never seen.
We ain't seen nothing yet baby.
But there's a price to pay and it's
desperate prayer and humility and faith and faith
that God will, will come.
He will.
If we will, He will.
End of message.