This is tape KK14 in the Springs of
Living Water Tape Library.
There are four steps that lead up to
a little landing where the door opens on
the stage of Carnegie Auditorium North Side in
Pittsburgh.
There's a black doorknob on the door.
I have walked up those four steps and
have stood on that little landing with my
hand on that black doorknob, and Kathryn Kuhlman
has died a thousand deaths on that one
step.
Because I knew that when I opened that
door, I would have to walk out on
that stage.
And I knew that sitting out there in
that auditorium were people who had traveled hundreds
of miles.
People out there from every walk of life.
People who have made sacrifices to be in
that miracle service.
Who've come because it was their last resort.
The medical profession could do nothing more for
them.
And then it comes.
This is the last resort.
Who go into one of those miracle services
and will believe God.
The answer prayer.
I knew that sitting out there in that
audience would be a father who had taken
off work.
And would come with his wife with a
little child.
They tried everything.
Perhaps it was cancer in that child's body.
That child was more precious to them than
anything else in the world.
They'd come as a last resort.
Bringing that child to God in prayer.
I knew as I stood on that last
step with my hand on that black doorknob.
That there were people sitting out there in
that audience who'd come in great pain.
Making an almost insurmountable effort just to
get there.
And many whether they had spoken it or
they had not.
Had said within themselves, if I can just
get there.
I know I'll be healed.
I died a thousand deaths on that last
step.
Only God knows.
Only God the Father knows my thoughts, my
feelings.
And more than once I could easily have
walked down those four steps.
It would have been the easiest thing in
the world.
To just run from it all.
Because Kathryn Kuhlman herself knew better than anyone
else in the whole world.
That she had no healing.
That she had no healing power.
Nobody, nobody, nobody knew it any better than
I knew myself.
I know myself.
I too am human.
I have my own weaknesses, my own failures.
I'm just a sinner saved by the grace
of God like any other Christian.
Like in one of God's children.
I knew standing on that top step that
I had no power to heal.
If my life depended upon it, I had
no power to heal a single person out
there in that audience.
Oh, the helplessness of it all.
The utter helplessness.
And the complete dependence on the power of
the Holy Spirit.
Do you know what I'm talking about?
Do you really know what I'm talking about?
I died not once, not a half dozen
times.
But over and over and over again.
Oh, sure.
The other day, when someone came into my
office and said, Kathryn Kuhlman, do you know
that men who have great influence
in many of our leading denominational churches, consider
your ministry of the Holy Spirit one of
the purest ministries today?
I said, oh, thank you.
That's so nice of you to say that.
And then almost disappointed, he said, well, aren't
you thrilled?
Aren't you excited?
Don't you consider that a wonderful compliment?
And I said, oh, sure.
Of course I appreciate that.
But you know, after one has gone through
much sacrifice, after one has fought so
long to stay so yielded to the Holy
Spirit, that when one is handed the trophy,
it really doesn't mean much.
You've paid the price.
It was costly.
It cost much.
You paid a big price.
But it was worth.
In that moment, compelling myself to open that
door and walk out on the platform, I
go out smiling, and sometimes I'm reminded by
those in the audience that I walk so
quickly.
I'm told that I walk so fast, whether
it's from behind the curtains of the great
stage of the Shrine Auditorium, or through that
door of Carnegie Auditorium, or wherever it is.
I'm not aware of the fact that I
am walking that quickly.
I think I do it spontaneously because I
know that the very second that I stand
before that great audience, I'm no longer Katharine
Kuhlman.
The Holy Spirit takes that which I have
yielded unto Him, and when I speak of
that which I yield unto Him, it's just
a yielded pliable vessel of clay that I
give.
It's that simple.
But one of the hardest lessons in the
whole world to learn is how to yield
oneself to the Holy Spirit.
It's one of the hardest lessons I've had
to learn, for I found out a long
time ago the Holy Spirit is not a
person that I can use.
And that is the lesson.
If only the Holy Spirit could get you
to learn.
He is not a person.
He is not a power that I can
use.
He must use the vessel.
And that's all that I furnish.
I'm just taking the lid off of my
heart to you this hour.
I am telling you the truth.
I'm taking the lid off of my heart
and bearing things to you that few people
know and few will ever fully understand.
There is a place where one yields himself
completely, where you give your body over to
Him completely.
Your body, your mind, every part of you,
your lips, your voice, your consciousness is yielded
completely unto Him.
And all that He uses is the yielded
vessel.
I have never professed having any gift of
the Spirit.
I would not confess to you now that
I have even one gift.
There are those who have said that I
have the gift of healing.
There are those who have said that I
have had the gift of faith.
You may have said it, but you'll never
hear Kathryn Kuhlman profess to have any.
I still contend that if one has been
so honored of the Holy Spirit, if the
Holy Spirit has so honored that one, has
so entrusted that one with a gift, if
He so willed to give one a gift
or gifts of the Spirit, that one will
treat that gift so carefully, will guard it
so well.
It will be such a truth that one
will not talk about it.
One will not boast for that one knows
that it is a trust.
It must be used carefully, wisely, discreetly.
And along with the giving of that gift,
there is a responsibility that is so great
that it is almost overwhelming.
Many a time have I stood on that
top step with my hand on that black
doorknob wishing that He had called
someone else instead of me.
Many a time with this tremendous responsibility that
is almost overwhelming, with the knowledge that He's
given me of the Word, with the knowledge
that He has given me of the powers
that are, with that with which He's endowed
me, that responsibility that goes with that with
which He's entrusted to you, is so overwhelming
that more than once I've envied the
little woman on that Missouri farm who gathers
the eggs at the close of the day
from her little henhouse, who perhaps helps with
the milking, who takes care of her precious
little family.
I could have easily have been that farmer's
wife in Miss Nora had God not called
me at the tender age of fourteen.
She can go to bed at night, tired,
oh sure, but she rests so well.
And when the gray streaks of dawn break
in the early morning hours, she again goes
about her daily duties, a responsibility to her
little family.
But oh beloved, the responsibility of one who's
been called of God, the responsibility that goes
with that with which He's entrusted you with,
after the close of a miracle service, and
I walk off of that platform, oh sure,
and those who leave that service say, Miss
Kuhlman must feel so well rewarded.
Think of those who were healed by the
power of God in that great miracle service.
And they go out of the service almost
with envy.
But beloved, I walk off of that same
platform thinking, did I yield completely to the
Spirit?
What if I had known how to better
have cooperated with the Spirit?
Maybe another might have been healed.
If only I had known how to better
follow Him as He was moving in that
great auditorium, someone else might have been set
free.
But responsibility, you're never from under it.
You're never, you're never, you're never from under
it.
It is the power of God.
It's the mighty power of the Holy Spirit.
The secret of those bodies that were healed
in those miracle services is the power of
the Holy Spirit.
Believe me.
And the only part that the servant plays,
the only part that I play, is in
yielding my body unto Him.
And He works through that body in lifting
up His only begotten Son, in lifting up
Jesus.
But the vessel must be healed.
You know, I become completely detached from that
which happens during a miracle service.
Absolutely.
It is almost as though Kathryn Kuhlman, the
person of Kathryn Kuhlman, is seated with the
crowd in the auditorium.
As a personality, as a person, I become
completely detached from that which the Holy Spirit
does.
You marvel.
Thousands have marveled the fact that I can
go through a service four hours, four and
a half hours, five, five and a half
hours.
I've gone as long as six hours in
one service without stopping, on my feet, never
being seated once.
And I am a woman.
And yet at the end of four hours,
five, six hours, I can walk off of
that platform, that stage, just as refreshed as
I went on at the beginning of that
service.
Doctors have told me that from a medical
standpoint, it is impossible for any human body
to take that beating, year in, year out.
A medical man in Pittsburgh told me 15
years ago that at the rate that I
was going then, my physical body could not
take three more years.
Here I am, still going strong.
And I'll put up against any man's work
the work that I do.
I'll put my work that I do in
one week up against the work of any
man that I know.
Seven days a week, 24 hours a day,
I can walk off of a platform after
a four, five, six-hour service just as
refreshed.
In fact, I could turn around and do
it all over again, you know?
I'll tell you the secret.
It's because Kathryn Kuhlman doesn't do it.
It's the power of the Holy Spirit.
Let me preach an hour under the anointing
of the Holy Spirit, one hour under the
anointing of the Holy Ghost, and I walk
off of that stage, that platform more refreshed
in body and in mind than I was
when I walked on that platform.
I know better than anyone else that it
is not Kathryn Kuhlman.
It's the power of the Holy Spirit that
is refreshing for my own body as He
fills the body with Himself and His own
Spirit.
There are those who ask regarding the slain
power of the Holy Spirit.
If I knew, I would tell you, and
I'm being perfectly honest about it.
If I knew, I would tell you.
I know no more about the slain power
of the Holy Spirit than I understood it
when one Tuesday night a woman stood and
said, Miss Kuhlman, last night while you were
preaching, I was healed.
I paused and I said, you mean that
you were physically healed as I was preaching?
She said, yes.
I questioned her from the platform and found
that as I was preaching, literally a tumor
had dissolved in her body.
She said, I was so sure of it.
I was so sure of it.
I went to my doctor today.
He examined me and said, it's true.
The tumor is no longer there.
So far as I can recollect, that was
the first time that anyone had ever been
healed just as they sat in a service
any time during my ministry.
That was the very first time.
Since that time, literally thousands and thousands and
thousands have been healed just sitting there in
the auditorium.
Explain it.
How can it be that someone just coming
into a service, sitting there, no one laying
hands upon them, no one touching them, they're
not in a healing line, but sitting there
completely healed of their affliction, their disease?
Ask me to explain it?
All I can tell you is that the
presence of the Holy Spirit is there to
heal.
He doesn't need me to lay hands upon
you that you might be healed.
He doesn't need me to touch you.
I have no healing virtue in my hands.
I have no healing virtue that comes from
my body.
I remind you again.
I'm just a sinner saved by the grace
of God.
But the same Holy Spirit who performed those
miracles through the body of Jesus, as Jesus
walked this earth as much man as though
he were not God, and who admitted that
it was the Holy Spirit who doeth these
works.
Peter understood.
He, to acknowledge, it was the Spirit of
God who performeth the miracles.
He is still the same Holy Spirit.
And it is the Holy Spirit who heals
those bodies out there in that great auditorium.
Many of them.
Many, many, many feet from me.
So far from me, I cannot see them.
Strangers.
I never touch them.
But they're no strangers to Him.
No.
When it comes to the slain power of
the Holy Spirit, I still contend that these
old physical bodies of ours are not geared
for so much power.
And it's just like that.
One of these days, this martyr will have
put on immortality.
One of these days, that which is corruption
will have put on incorruption.
But now, the old physical body, in this
state of corruption, this old physical body can
just take just so much of the power
of the Holy Spirit, so much of this
dynamite, and believe me, it is.
It's the greatest power that man can know.
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