1 00:00:02,380 --> 00:00:04,460 So, you know now, I stop and think, 2 00:00:04,520 --> 00:00:06,000 am I willing to practice it before I 3 00:00:06,000 --> 00:00:06,500 preach it. 4 00:00:06,880 --> 00:00:11,600 Matthew 16 verse 24 and 25 Then said 5 00:00:11,600 --> 00:00:14,260 Jesus unto his disciples, If any man will 6 00:00:14,260 --> 00:00:17,680 come after me, let him deny himself, and 7 00:00:17,680 --> 00:00:19,920 take up his cross, and follow me. 8 00:00:20,400 --> 00:00:23,300 For whosoever will save his life, shall lose 9 00:00:23,300 --> 00:00:23,520 it. 10 00:00:23,900 --> 00:00:26,140 And whosoever will lose his life for my 11 00:00:26,140 --> 00:00:27,580 sake, shall find it. 12 00:00:28,020 --> 00:00:30,920 Now let's go to 2nd Corinthians chapter 4. 13 00:00:30,920 --> 00:00:33,560 I think you'll notice that all the passages 14 00:00:33,560 --> 00:00:35,380 I'm going to read, all three passages, have 15 00:00:35,380 --> 00:00:38,340 got to do with a balance between death 16 00:00:38,340 --> 00:00:39,380 and life. 17 00:00:39,820 --> 00:00:43,120 2nd Corinthians chapter 4, beginning perhaps at verse 18 00:00:43,120 --> 00:00:43,520 7. 19 00:00:43,980 --> 00:00:46,760 2nd Corinthians 4 verse 7 But we have 20 00:00:46,760 --> 00:00:49,180 this treasure in earth and vessel, that the 21 00:00:49,180 --> 00:00:51,260 excellency of the power may be of God, 22 00:00:51,780 --> 00:00:52,580 and not of us. 23 00:00:52,900 --> 00:00:55,600 We are troubled on every side, yet not 24 00:00:55,600 --> 00:00:56,120 distressed. 25 00:00:56,120 --> 00:00:58,460 We are perplexed, but not in despair. 26 00:00:59,120 --> 00:01:00,720 Persecuted, but not forsaken. 27 00:01:00,940 --> 00:01:02,500 Cast down, but not destroyed. 28 00:01:03,180 --> 00:01:06,420 Always bearing about in the body, the dying 29 00:01:06,420 --> 00:01:07,300 of the Lord Jesus. 30 00:01:07,640 --> 00:01:09,900 That the life also of Jesus, might be 31 00:01:09,900 --> 00:01:11,620 made manifest in our body. 32 00:01:12,120 --> 00:01:15,000 For we who live, are always delivered unto 33 00:01:15,000 --> 00:01:15,460 death. 34 00:01:15,760 --> 00:01:18,580 For Jesus' sake, that the life also of 35 00:01:18,580 --> 00:01:21,560 Jesus, might be made manifest in our mortal 36 00:01:21,560 --> 00:01:21,960 flesh. 37 00:01:21,960 --> 00:01:26,000 So then, death worketh in us, but life 38 00:01:26,000 --> 00:01:26,920 in you. 39 00:01:27,440 --> 00:01:29,380 And then in Philippians chapter 3. 40 00:01:29,940 --> 00:01:31,280 I hope I can get around to preach 41 00:01:31,280 --> 00:01:31,760 on these. 42 00:01:32,340 --> 00:01:33,140 They're so good. 43 00:01:33,740 --> 00:01:37,840 Philippians chapter 3, we begin at verse 8. 44 00:01:38,040 --> 00:01:39,240 Read through verse 10. 45 00:01:39,820 --> 00:01:41,660 Yea doubtless, and I count all things but 46 00:01:41,660 --> 00:01:41,980 lost. 47 00:01:42,020 --> 00:01:43,840 For the excellency of the knowledge of Christ 48 00:01:43,840 --> 00:01:44,660 Jesus my Lord. 49 00:01:44,740 --> 00:01:45,980 For whom I have suffered the loss of 50 00:01:45,980 --> 00:01:46,440 all things. 51 00:01:46,920 --> 00:01:48,980 And do count them but done, that I 52 00:01:48,980 --> 00:01:49,840 may win Christ. 53 00:01:49,840 --> 00:01:52,780 And be found in him, not having mine 54 00:01:52,780 --> 00:01:54,640 own righteousness which is of the law. 55 00:01:55,160 --> 00:01:56,700 But that which is through the faith of 56 00:01:56,700 --> 00:01:57,040 Christ. 57 00:01:57,420 --> 00:02:00,420 The righteousness which is of God, by faith. 58 00:02:00,880 --> 00:02:03,000 That I may know him, and the power 59 00:02:03,000 --> 00:02:03,880 of his resurrection. 60 00:02:04,340 --> 00:02:05,900 And the fellowship of his suffering. 61 00:02:06,300 --> 00:02:08,720 Being made conformable unto his death. 62 00:02:09,100 --> 00:02:11,460 If by any means, I might attain unto 63 00:02:11,460 --> 00:02:12,560 the resurrection of the dead. 64 00:02:13,020 --> 00:02:15,200 You know for years and years, I mean 65 00:02:15,200 --> 00:02:16,520 20 years or more. 66 00:02:16,520 --> 00:02:18,940 I used to read that 10th verse. 67 00:02:19,580 --> 00:02:21,300 And I would say, Lord I know it's 68 00:02:21,300 --> 00:02:21,840 in the Bible. 69 00:02:22,300 --> 00:02:23,520 I'm sure it's right. 70 00:02:24,120 --> 00:02:26,340 But to be honest, I can't say it. 71 00:02:26,760 --> 00:02:28,240 And I don't want to say anything, I 72 00:02:28,240 --> 00:02:28,740 don't mean. 73 00:02:29,060 --> 00:02:30,780 I mean Paul said it, it's in the 74 00:02:30,780 --> 00:02:31,040 Bible. 75 00:02:31,200 --> 00:02:33,300 But to say that I want to know 76 00:02:33,300 --> 00:02:34,820 the fellowship of your suffering. 77 00:02:35,320 --> 00:02:37,140 I just can't bring myself to say it. 78 00:02:37,400 --> 00:02:39,260 So I have a pending file that I 79 00:02:39,260 --> 00:02:40,060 put things in. 80 00:02:40,540 --> 00:02:42,200 When I can't ignore them and I'm not 81 00:02:42,200 --> 00:02:43,120 ready to deal with them. 82 00:02:43,320 --> 00:02:45,000 So I just have my pending file and 83 00:02:45,000 --> 00:02:45,780 I slip them in there. 84 00:02:45,780 --> 00:02:48,400 Well gradually over the years the Lord has 85 00:02:48,400 --> 00:02:49,120 dealt with me. 86 00:02:49,560 --> 00:02:51,980 To the point where with a kind of 87 00:02:51,980 --> 00:02:53,620 gulp, I can say it. 88 00:02:54,000 --> 00:02:56,440 That I may know him, the power of 89 00:02:56,440 --> 00:02:57,140 his resurrection. 90 00:02:57,860 --> 00:02:59,200 The fellowship of his suffering. 91 00:02:59,640 --> 00:03:01,500 Being made conformable unto his death. 92 00:03:01,880 --> 00:03:03,960 I hope I'll be able to explain this. 93 00:03:04,280 --> 00:03:06,760 In some ways it's perhaps difficult to say 94 00:03:06,760 --> 00:03:06,940 it. 95 00:03:07,400 --> 00:03:10,700 But this is the second law of spiritual 96 00:03:10,700 --> 00:03:12,520 progress that I have learned. 97 00:03:12,620 --> 00:03:13,360 It's in the scripture. 98 00:03:14,260 --> 00:03:16,400 Let's go back to Matthew 16 and look 99 00:03:16,400 --> 00:03:17,200 what he says there. 100 00:03:17,420 --> 00:03:18,460 First of all. 101 00:03:18,600 --> 00:03:20,940 If any man will come after me let 102 00:03:20,940 --> 00:03:22,000 him deny himself. 103 00:03:22,580 --> 00:03:24,680 And take up his cross and follow me. 104 00:03:25,160 --> 00:03:27,640 I believe there are certain specific steps. 105 00:03:27,920 --> 00:03:29,620 That we cannot avoid if we're going to 106 00:03:29,620 --> 00:03:30,220 follow the Lord. 107 00:03:30,680 --> 00:03:33,160 The first one is to deny ourself. 108 00:03:33,580 --> 00:03:35,240 Somebody said that's very simple. 109 00:03:35,420 --> 00:03:37,140 To deny means to say no. 110 00:03:37,680 --> 00:03:40,000 And to deny yourself is to say no 111 00:03:40,000 --> 00:03:40,880 to yourself. 112 00:03:40,880 --> 00:03:44,000 Yourself says I want and you say no. 113 00:03:44,460 --> 00:03:47,180 And I believe that is really the first 114 00:03:47,180 --> 00:03:49,520 requirement for following the Lord. 115 00:03:50,020 --> 00:03:52,300 Is learning to say no to myself. 116 00:03:52,780 --> 00:03:55,740 Let him deny himself, take up his cross 117 00:03:55,740 --> 00:03:56,800 and follow me. 118 00:03:57,300 --> 00:03:59,640 The second thing that Jesus says we have 119 00:03:59,640 --> 00:04:01,280 to do is take up our cross. 120 00:04:01,620 --> 00:04:04,220 Now I do believe the cross is voluntary. 121 00:04:04,860 --> 00:04:06,540 It isn't imposed upon you. 122 00:04:07,020 --> 00:04:09,120 You can take it or refuse it. 123 00:04:09,120 --> 00:04:11,080 But if you don't take it you can't 124 00:04:11,080 --> 00:04:11,560 follow him. 125 00:04:12,000 --> 00:04:12,980 What is the cross? 126 00:04:13,240 --> 00:04:14,800 Can be defined in many ways. 127 00:04:14,900 --> 00:04:17,019 But I think one of the best definitions 128 00:04:17,019 --> 00:04:18,519 I heard is the cross. 129 00:04:18,779 --> 00:04:22,120 Is where your will and God's will cross. 130 00:04:22,520 --> 00:04:24,500 There is a cross for everyone. 131 00:04:24,600 --> 00:04:25,800 There's a hymn that says that. 132 00:04:26,180 --> 00:04:27,140 It's also true. 133 00:04:27,780 --> 00:04:30,440 The cross is the place where you die. 134 00:04:30,940 --> 00:04:32,160 You don't have to go there. 135 00:04:32,620 --> 00:04:35,360 But we sung a very very beautiful song. 136 00:04:35,600 --> 00:04:37,980 Which said that if we follow Islam. 137 00:04:37,980 --> 00:04:39,320 It'll lead us where? 138 00:04:39,800 --> 00:04:40,380 To Calvary. 139 00:04:41,200 --> 00:04:42,800 There is no bypassing that. 140 00:04:43,060 --> 00:04:44,000 There is no other way. 141 00:04:44,560 --> 00:04:45,860 Let's look on the next verse. 142 00:04:46,260 --> 00:04:47,120 Verse 25. 143 00:04:47,740 --> 00:04:50,360 For whosoever will save his life shall lose 144 00:04:50,360 --> 00:04:50,540 it. 145 00:04:51,000 --> 00:04:53,060 And whosoever will lose his life for my 146 00:04:53,060 --> 00:04:54,040 sake shall find it. 147 00:04:54,440 --> 00:04:55,720 Now that's the paradox. 148 00:04:56,040 --> 00:04:58,120 If you want to find life you have 149 00:04:58,120 --> 00:04:58,700 to lose it. 150 00:04:59,060 --> 00:05:00,760 And you have to lose it before you 151 00:05:00,760 --> 00:05:01,700 find it. 152 00:05:02,140 --> 00:05:03,200 It's always faith. 153 00:05:03,620 --> 00:05:05,120 I believe in the kingdom of God. 154 00:05:05,120 --> 00:05:07,940 God has got a precise price tag on 155 00:05:07,940 --> 00:05:09,140 every item. 156 00:05:09,640 --> 00:05:10,340 You want it. 157 00:05:10,600 --> 00:05:12,040 It costs that much. 158 00:05:12,360 --> 00:05:13,500 God never has a sale. 159 00:05:14,880 --> 00:05:17,620 But the good side to the situation is 160 00:05:17,620 --> 00:05:18,480 there's no inflation. 161 00:05:19,680 --> 00:05:22,020 The price is just the same as it 162 00:05:22,020 --> 00:05:23,480 was 19 centuries ago. 163 00:05:23,600 --> 00:05:24,420 It hasn't changed. 164 00:05:24,800 --> 00:05:27,800 Now what does it mean to lose your 165 00:05:27,800 --> 00:05:28,120 life? 166 00:05:28,480 --> 00:05:30,280 I want to try to explain this in 167 00:05:30,280 --> 00:05:31,840 a very practical way. 168 00:05:31,900 --> 00:05:33,160 Not an emotional way. 169 00:05:33,720 --> 00:05:36,100 Not to tell you a sad story about 170 00:05:36,100 --> 00:05:38,200 a missionary laying down his life in darkest 171 00:05:38,200 --> 00:05:38,660 Africa. 172 00:05:39,300 --> 00:05:41,980 But to relate it in a very practical 173 00:05:41,980 --> 00:05:42,300 way. 174 00:05:42,440 --> 00:05:45,680 There are three words in Greek that are 175 00:05:45,680 --> 00:05:48,320 translated life in the New Testament in English. 176 00:05:48,860 --> 00:05:50,800 And it's really important to distinguish them. 177 00:05:51,220 --> 00:05:52,680 If you want to do it you can 178 00:05:52,680 --> 00:05:54,360 always do it through a concordance. 179 00:05:54,440 --> 00:05:56,280 Either young's or strong's. 180 00:05:56,400 --> 00:05:58,620 Because they separate the words according to the 181 00:05:58,620 --> 00:06:00,040 original word that's translated. 182 00:06:00,040 --> 00:06:02,640 So it's not a secret that's confined to 183 00:06:02,640 --> 00:06:03,360 a few people. 184 00:06:03,700 --> 00:06:06,400 Anyone that's got enough money to buy a 185 00:06:06,400 --> 00:06:08,040 concordance or friend to lend it. 186 00:06:08,460 --> 00:06:10,160 And willing to work at it can find 187 00:06:10,160 --> 00:06:10,600 these things. 188 00:06:11,240 --> 00:06:15,100 The three words are zoe which in Greek 189 00:06:15,100 --> 00:06:17,880 means basically divine life. 190 00:06:18,420 --> 00:06:20,300 That's a little oversimplified. 191 00:06:20,440 --> 00:06:22,380 But in John 1 for it says in 192 00:06:22,380 --> 00:06:24,840 him Jesus Christ was life. 193 00:06:24,840 --> 00:06:27,140 And in 1 John 5 12 it says 194 00:06:27,140 --> 00:06:28,320 he that hath the son. 195 00:06:28,860 --> 00:06:29,500 S O N. 196 00:06:29,640 --> 00:06:30,800 Hath the life. 197 00:06:31,160 --> 00:06:31,400 Zoe. 198 00:06:31,800 --> 00:06:35,000 That's essentially a life which we cannot have 199 00:06:35,000 --> 00:06:36,080 apart from God. 200 00:06:36,600 --> 00:06:38,200 Its source is God. 201 00:06:38,640 --> 00:06:41,080 The second word is bios which gives us 202 00:06:41,080 --> 00:06:42,240 the English word biology. 203 00:06:42,880 --> 00:06:46,080 And that means basically Jesus talks about the 204 00:06:46,080 --> 00:06:47,220 cares of this life. 205 00:06:47,400 --> 00:06:48,760 And the deceitfulness of riches. 206 00:06:48,920 --> 00:06:49,560 The word is bios. 207 00:06:49,720 --> 00:06:51,620 It means the kind of life that every 208 00:06:51,620 --> 00:06:52,520 person has. 209 00:06:52,520 --> 00:06:53,980 Getting a job. 210 00:06:54,420 --> 00:06:55,220 Getting married. 211 00:06:55,720 --> 00:06:57,000 Finding enough food. 212 00:06:57,500 --> 00:07:00,820 That whole realm of physical material life. 213 00:07:01,300 --> 00:07:02,520 But the third word. 214 00:07:02,840 --> 00:07:04,140 The one that's used here. 215 00:07:04,620 --> 00:07:05,740 The Greek word psuche. 216 00:07:06,220 --> 00:07:08,680 Which gives us sort of English words like 217 00:07:08,680 --> 00:07:10,820 psychology, psychic. 218 00:07:11,340 --> 00:07:13,560 Though they're not exactly in line with the 219 00:07:13,560 --> 00:07:14,060 meaning of the Greek. 220 00:07:14,120 --> 00:07:17,400 Now the Greek word psuche means soul. 221 00:07:17,580 --> 00:07:18,940 S O U L. 222 00:07:19,340 --> 00:07:20,860 And that's what Jesus said. 223 00:07:20,860 --> 00:07:23,280 He said if any man will. 224 00:07:23,780 --> 00:07:24,980 Let's look at the words and get them 225 00:07:24,980 --> 00:07:25,200 right. 226 00:07:25,340 --> 00:07:28,800 For whosoever will save his soul shall lose 227 00:07:28,800 --> 00:07:29,000 it. 228 00:07:29,480 --> 00:07:32,360 And whosoever will lose his soul for my 229 00:07:32,360 --> 00:07:33,820 sake shall find it. 230 00:07:34,240 --> 00:07:36,880 What does it mean to save or to 231 00:07:36,880 --> 00:07:37,840 lose your soul? 232 00:07:38,280 --> 00:07:39,920 I want to try to illustrate that to 233 00:07:39,920 --> 00:07:41,580 you in a practical way. 234 00:07:42,080 --> 00:07:43,940 When I came into the ministry of deliverance. 235 00:07:44,820 --> 00:07:46,960 I got like most people. 236 00:07:46,960 --> 00:07:49,380 I got caught up with the dramatic spirits 237 00:07:49,380 --> 00:07:50,100 of suicide. 238 00:07:50,680 --> 00:07:52,080 And witchcraft. 239 00:07:52,440 --> 00:07:53,800 And anger. 240 00:07:54,280 --> 00:07:55,620 And addictions. 241 00:07:56,200 --> 00:07:57,540 It was all very dramatic. 242 00:07:58,140 --> 00:07:59,600 And resentment and so on. 243 00:08:00,260 --> 00:08:02,560 But after a while I began to realize. 244 00:08:02,800 --> 00:08:05,340 That I was only dealing with small branches 245 00:08:05,340 --> 00:08:07,400 of man's total problems. 246 00:08:07,980 --> 00:08:09,560 For instance just to give you an example. 247 00:08:09,740 --> 00:08:11,340 I discovered that if a person has an 248 00:08:11,340 --> 00:08:11,740 addiction. 249 00:08:12,420 --> 00:08:15,560 It almost always arises out of a frustration. 250 00:08:15,560 --> 00:08:18,220 So you don't solve the person's problem. 251 00:08:18,380 --> 00:08:19,660 If you just deal with the addiction. 252 00:08:19,880 --> 00:08:21,180 But don't deal with the frustration. 253 00:08:21,840 --> 00:08:22,740 And as I went on. 254 00:08:22,820 --> 00:08:25,060 I began to see always going further and 255 00:08:25,060 --> 00:08:25,700 further down. 256 00:08:25,840 --> 00:08:27,820 From the twigs to the branches to the 257 00:08:27,820 --> 00:08:28,100 limbs. 258 00:08:28,340 --> 00:08:29,220 And then to the trunk. 259 00:08:29,700 --> 00:08:31,700 But then I read in Matthew 3 10. 260 00:08:31,840 --> 00:08:33,020 Where John the Baptist says. 261 00:08:33,039 --> 00:08:34,840 Now also the axe is laid to the 262 00:08:34,840 --> 00:08:35,500 root of the tree. 263 00:08:35,980 --> 00:08:37,580 And I saw that in actual fact. 264 00:08:37,659 --> 00:08:39,159 If you really want to get rid of 265 00:08:39,159 --> 00:08:39,520 the tree. 266 00:08:39,940 --> 00:08:41,440 You don't just cut off the branches. 267 00:08:41,559 --> 00:08:43,140 You don't even just cut down the trunk. 268 00:08:43,560 --> 00:08:44,700 You've got to get to the root. 269 00:08:44,700 --> 00:08:46,520 And the root is below the surface. 270 00:08:47,020 --> 00:08:48,860 Now that I believe is true of human 271 00:08:48,860 --> 00:08:49,240 nature. 272 00:08:49,800 --> 00:08:52,140 And I would say that the root of 273 00:08:52,140 --> 00:08:52,960 man's problem. 274 00:08:53,560 --> 00:08:55,540 Is his self light. 275 00:08:55,960 --> 00:08:56,640 The ego. 276 00:08:57,440 --> 00:08:58,420 The eye. 277 00:08:58,980 --> 00:09:00,020 And in my mind. 278 00:09:00,140 --> 00:09:01,660 I well I once drew a little diagram 279 00:09:01,660 --> 00:09:03,000 of that tree. 280 00:09:03,520 --> 00:09:05,580 The line where the earth comes. 281 00:09:05,740 --> 00:09:07,120 And then what's below the surface. 282 00:09:07,600 --> 00:09:08,640 That you don't see. 283 00:09:09,100 --> 00:09:12,020 And most people resent you going below the 284 00:09:12,020 --> 00:09:12,340 surface. 285 00:09:12,460 --> 00:09:12,840 You know that. 286 00:09:13,960 --> 00:09:16,280 And I in my mind's eye. 287 00:09:16,440 --> 00:09:17,600 I drew three roots. 288 00:09:18,040 --> 00:09:19,600 One big central root. 289 00:09:20,120 --> 00:09:21,440 And one on either side. 290 00:09:21,780 --> 00:09:23,500 And I would say those are the roots 291 00:09:23,500 --> 00:09:25,400 of the soul life. 292 00:09:25,780 --> 00:09:26,900 That we have to lose. 293 00:09:27,260 --> 00:09:28,840 And each of them begins with an eye. 294 00:09:29,300 --> 00:09:30,820 The big central one is. 295 00:09:31,040 --> 00:09:31,620 I want. 296 00:09:31,960 --> 00:09:32,600 My will. 297 00:09:33,580 --> 00:09:35,100 The one on the other side is. 298 00:09:35,180 --> 00:09:35,820 I feel. 299 00:09:36,340 --> 00:09:37,000 My emotion. 300 00:09:37,580 --> 00:09:38,840 And then the other side. 301 00:09:39,100 --> 00:09:39,820 I think. 302 00:09:40,380 --> 00:09:41,000 My mind. 303 00:09:41,460 --> 00:09:42,180 I want. 304 00:09:42,180 --> 00:09:43,200 I feel. 305 00:09:43,640 --> 00:09:44,200 I think. 306 00:09:44,440 --> 00:09:46,740 You study unregenerate man. 307 00:09:46,880 --> 00:09:49,300 He's ruled by those three eye. 308 00:09:49,840 --> 00:09:50,580 I want. 309 00:09:51,040 --> 00:09:52,060 I think. 310 00:09:52,500 --> 00:09:53,120 I feel. 311 00:09:53,500 --> 00:09:54,520 That's the soul. 312 00:09:55,000 --> 00:09:56,920 In its rebellion against almighty God. 313 00:09:56,980 --> 00:09:59,560 The soul is the rebellious area of man. 314 00:10:00,160 --> 00:10:02,680 Jesus says if you want the life that 315 00:10:02,680 --> 00:10:03,380 God has. 316 00:10:03,600 --> 00:10:04,660 You've got to lose that. 317 00:10:04,980 --> 00:10:06,260 You've got to let it go. 318 00:10:06,700 --> 00:10:08,760 You are no longer to be governed by. 319 00:10:09,160 --> 00:10:09,900 I want. 320 00:10:10,180 --> 00:10:10,980 I think. 321 00:10:11,520 --> 00:10:12,080 I feel. 322 00:10:12,180 --> 00:10:13,700 There's got to be a death. 323 00:10:14,080 --> 00:10:15,900 And if you're willing to let them die. 324 00:10:16,400 --> 00:10:17,420 They'll come a new life. 325 00:10:17,880 --> 00:10:18,980 But if you hold on to them. 326 00:10:19,380 --> 00:10:21,760 You never find the life that God has 327 00:10:21,760 --> 00:10:22,020 for you. 328 00:10:22,100 --> 00:10:23,640 I don't mean that you go to hell 329 00:10:23,640 --> 00:10:24,580 or heaven. 330 00:10:24,680 --> 00:10:25,660 That's not what I'm talking about. 331 00:10:25,940 --> 00:10:28,660 I'm talking about finding the life that God 332 00:10:28,660 --> 00:10:29,700 has for you. 333 00:10:30,020 --> 00:10:30,720 Here and now. 334 00:10:31,140 --> 00:10:32,800 If you want that life. 335 00:10:33,280 --> 00:10:35,120 You've got to lose the other first. 336 00:10:35,600 --> 00:10:37,160 If you're not willing to lose it. 337 00:10:37,540 --> 00:10:38,520 You won't find it. 338 00:10:38,920 --> 00:10:39,840 And it's a death. 339 00:10:40,280 --> 00:10:41,620 Death is never pleasant. 340 00:10:42,180 --> 00:10:44,480 Let no one ever deceive you with pretty 341 00:10:44,480 --> 00:10:45,400 words about death. 342 00:10:45,620 --> 00:10:46,940 Death is the last enemy. 343 00:10:47,520 --> 00:10:49,400 Thank God that Jesus has conquered death. 344 00:10:49,900 --> 00:10:51,300 No one welcomes death. 345 00:10:51,720 --> 00:10:53,040 No one ever will welcome death. 346 00:10:53,540 --> 00:10:55,700 Let's go to the next passage I read. 347 00:10:55,820 --> 00:10:57,660 2nd Corinthians chapter 4. 348 00:10:58,840 --> 00:11:00,220 See again the contrast. 349 00:11:00,700 --> 00:11:01,920 Always bearing about. 350 00:11:02,140 --> 00:11:02,860 Verse 10. 351 00:11:03,400 --> 00:11:05,680 2nd Corinthians 4.10. Always bearing about in 352 00:11:05,680 --> 00:11:06,120 the body. 353 00:11:06,700 --> 00:11:08,020 The dying of the Lord Jesus. 354 00:11:08,540 --> 00:11:10,080 That the life also of Jesus. 355 00:11:10,080 --> 00:11:12,800 Might be made manifest in our body. 356 00:11:13,180 --> 00:11:14,760 If you don't carry the death. 357 00:11:15,220 --> 00:11:17,180 You can't manifest the life. 358 00:11:17,640 --> 00:11:18,160 Verse 11. 359 00:11:18,260 --> 00:11:21,260 For we who live are continually being delivered 360 00:11:21,260 --> 00:11:21,880 unto death. 361 00:11:22,280 --> 00:11:23,260 For Jesus sake. 362 00:11:23,800 --> 00:11:25,440 That the life also of Jesus might be 363 00:11:25,440 --> 00:11:27,920 made manifest in our mortal flesh. 364 00:11:28,040 --> 00:11:29,900 That's divine healing and divine health. 365 00:11:30,000 --> 00:11:30,580 But you see. 366 00:11:31,080 --> 00:11:32,320 There's a basic requirement. 367 00:11:32,980 --> 00:11:34,800 Your own will. 368 00:11:35,180 --> 00:11:36,140 Your ego. 369 00:11:36,680 --> 00:11:37,740 Your ideas. 370 00:11:38,020 --> 00:11:38,840 Your desires. 371 00:11:39,080 --> 00:11:39,860 Your ambitions. 372 00:11:40,080 --> 00:11:41,960 Shut off the life of God. 373 00:11:42,420 --> 00:11:44,100 As long as you cling on to them. 374 00:11:44,600 --> 00:11:46,380 His life cannot flow through you. 375 00:11:46,800 --> 00:11:48,320 So then you come to this statement. 376 00:11:49,040 --> 00:11:49,680 Verse 12. 377 00:11:49,840 --> 00:11:51,740 So then death worketh in us. 378 00:11:51,980 --> 00:11:53,040 But life in you. 379 00:11:53,220 --> 00:11:54,600 Do you want to minister life? 380 00:11:55,120 --> 00:11:55,840 There's a price. 381 00:11:56,240 --> 00:11:56,960 Death in you. 382 00:11:57,400 --> 00:11:57,740 See. 383 00:11:58,200 --> 00:12:01,580 That natural soul life. 384 00:12:01,880 --> 00:12:03,360 Is at war with God. 385 00:12:03,840 --> 00:12:05,300 It's opposed to God. 386 00:12:05,780 --> 00:12:06,520 It's an enemy. 387 00:12:07,200 --> 00:12:09,080 It's contrary to the spirit of God. 388 00:12:09,080 --> 00:12:11,720 It doesn't receive the life of God. 389 00:12:12,020 --> 00:12:13,860 You want to be a life transmitter? 390 00:12:14,540 --> 00:12:15,000 All right. 391 00:12:15,120 --> 00:12:16,560 Accept the sentence of death. 392 00:12:16,960 --> 00:12:17,860 When you die. 393 00:12:18,280 --> 00:12:19,820 God's life flows through you. 394 00:12:20,260 --> 00:12:23,140 I've learned this in innumerable different ways. 395 00:12:23,420 --> 00:12:24,940 I remember I was going to preach in 396 00:12:24,940 --> 00:12:25,380 Denmark. 397 00:12:25,800 --> 00:12:26,680 Through an interpreter. 398 00:12:27,300 --> 00:12:28,160 In 1947. 399 00:12:28,680 --> 00:12:29,640 That's good many years ago. 400 00:12:29,840 --> 00:12:30,740 In fact 30 years ago. 401 00:12:31,220 --> 00:12:33,240 And it was really important to me. 402 00:12:33,300 --> 00:12:33,960 I did well. 403 00:12:34,260 --> 00:12:35,660 I mean I really wanted to do well. 404 00:12:35,680 --> 00:12:36,820 When I got there. 405 00:12:36,820 --> 00:12:39,700 I discovered my interpreter didn't understand what I 406 00:12:39,700 --> 00:12:40,320 was talking about. 407 00:12:40,800 --> 00:12:42,200 And I thought what am I going to 408 00:12:42,200 --> 00:12:42,440 do? 409 00:12:42,780 --> 00:12:44,500 And I said Lord into your hands. 410 00:12:44,620 --> 00:12:45,660 I commend my spirit. 411 00:12:45,800 --> 00:12:47,000 I just can't do anything about it. 412 00:12:47,460 --> 00:12:49,800 God blessed that meeting in a remarkable way. 413 00:12:49,920 --> 00:12:50,780 Because I died. 414 00:12:51,700 --> 00:12:53,440 When I got myself out of the way. 415 00:12:53,540 --> 00:12:54,880 God could do something. 416 00:12:55,200 --> 00:12:56,900 I remember being in the same church two 417 00:12:56,900 --> 00:12:57,680 or three years later. 418 00:12:58,260 --> 00:13:00,060 And they had in that Pentecostal church in 419 00:13:00,060 --> 00:13:00,540 Copenhagen. 420 00:13:00,760 --> 00:13:02,180 Where Eric knows the church. 421 00:13:02,580 --> 00:13:04,780 They had a members meeting. 422 00:13:05,260 --> 00:13:05,840 Every week. 423 00:13:05,840 --> 00:13:07,520 Well they invited me to speak. 424 00:13:08,020 --> 00:13:09,480 I thought it was a gospel service. 425 00:13:09,860 --> 00:13:11,440 So I came along with a gospel message. 426 00:13:11,820 --> 00:13:14,280 And I got they comparing themselves by themselves. 427 00:13:14,380 --> 00:13:16,880 And measuring themselves by amongst themselves are not 428 00:13:16,880 --> 00:13:17,180 wise. 429 00:13:17,240 --> 00:13:18,520 I was going to talk to sinners. 430 00:13:19,100 --> 00:13:20,160 Well when I got there. 431 00:13:20,220 --> 00:13:24,340 Again I was not sufficiently able in those 432 00:13:24,340 --> 00:13:25,120 days to preach. 433 00:13:25,160 --> 00:13:26,520 That I could change my message. 434 00:13:26,600 --> 00:13:27,800 And preach through an interpreter. 435 00:13:27,960 --> 00:13:30,260 So I had to preach my message for 436 00:13:30,260 --> 00:13:31,220 sinners to saints. 437 00:13:31,680 --> 00:13:32,860 And God sent a revival. 438 00:13:34,100 --> 00:13:36,440 It turned out the saints were sinners. 439 00:13:39,660 --> 00:13:40,240 Why? 440 00:13:40,840 --> 00:13:41,880 Because I'd given up. 441 00:13:42,360 --> 00:13:44,140 I mean I had just come to the 442 00:13:44,140 --> 00:13:44,780 point where I said. 443 00:13:45,060 --> 00:13:47,080 I cannot do anything in this situation. 444 00:13:47,400 --> 00:13:49,000 Those are very simple examples. 445 00:13:49,460 --> 00:13:52,260 I discovered that when God uses me to 446 00:13:52,260 --> 00:13:52,960 bless others. 447 00:13:53,420 --> 00:13:55,360 I always have to do it at my 448 00:13:55,360 --> 00:13:56,360 own inconvenience. 449 00:13:56,800 --> 00:14:00,100 It always demands self-denial. 450 00:14:00,100 --> 00:14:01,380 Somewhere or other. 451 00:14:01,600 --> 00:14:04,100 I have to give up something to bless 452 00:14:04,100 --> 00:14:04,400 others. 453 00:14:04,880 --> 00:14:07,560 All right I've just settled down to listen 454 00:14:07,560 --> 00:14:09,060 to my favorite record. 455 00:14:09,380 --> 00:14:11,120 Which is anybody may know it. 456 00:14:11,160 --> 00:14:12,560 Christopher Parkin and Klezbach. 457 00:14:13,000 --> 00:14:14,280 And the phone rings. 458 00:14:14,580 --> 00:14:17,300 All right it's a black lady I met 459 00:14:17,300 --> 00:14:17,940 in a convention. 460 00:14:18,080 --> 00:14:19,520 I won't give her name or location. 461 00:14:19,640 --> 00:14:21,100 Because who knows where tapes will end. 462 00:14:21,380 --> 00:14:24,380 And she wants to counsel with Brother Prince. 463 00:14:24,720 --> 00:14:26,460 And I give her 15 minutes. 464 00:14:26,500 --> 00:14:27,900 When I could have been listening to Christopher 465 00:14:27,900 --> 00:14:28,360 Parkin. 466 00:14:28,360 --> 00:14:30,260 Don't you think that costs something? 467 00:14:30,360 --> 00:14:31,720 Believe me it cost me something. 468 00:14:33,460 --> 00:14:35,260 But I know if I do it. 469 00:14:35,560 --> 00:14:36,180 God will bless. 470 00:14:36,680 --> 00:14:38,080 Because I've got my ego out of the 471 00:14:38,080 --> 00:14:38,320 way. 472 00:14:38,640 --> 00:14:39,920 My soul life. 473 00:14:40,400 --> 00:14:41,100 The I want. 474 00:14:41,200 --> 00:14:41,640 I think. 475 00:14:41,740 --> 00:14:43,340 I feel Lord this is the time I 476 00:14:43,340 --> 00:14:44,300 set aside for myself. 477 00:14:44,800 --> 00:14:46,940 You know I always like 30 minutes alone 478 00:14:46,940 --> 00:14:47,840 before I go to bed. 479 00:14:48,360 --> 00:14:49,480 The Lord knows too well. 480 00:14:49,880 --> 00:14:51,500 Actually this has happened twice. 481 00:14:52,260 --> 00:14:53,840 I have to be careful what I say. 482 00:14:53,960 --> 00:14:55,660 Because this lady may one day hear this 483 00:14:55,660 --> 00:14:55,900 tape. 484 00:14:56,620 --> 00:14:58,120 I've got to this stage. 485 00:14:58,240 --> 00:14:59,040 And people that know me know. 486 00:14:59,180 --> 00:15:00,260 I unplugged my phone. 487 00:15:00,420 --> 00:15:02,360 Then in Florida they've given us those nice 488 00:15:02,360 --> 00:15:02,640 phones. 489 00:15:02,740 --> 00:15:04,140 Where you just pull the thing out anytime 490 00:15:04,140 --> 00:15:04,620 you want. 491 00:15:04,760 --> 00:15:05,680 You know terrific progress. 492 00:15:06,680 --> 00:15:08,720 And I got three phones with my number. 493 00:15:08,860 --> 00:15:09,940 And when I want to be by myself. 494 00:15:10,120 --> 00:15:11,680 I go around and unplug every phone. 495 00:15:12,460 --> 00:15:13,720 And when I'm writing a book. 496 00:15:13,760 --> 00:15:14,580 And I've been writing a book. 497 00:15:14,660 --> 00:15:15,540 I unplugged the phone. 498 00:15:16,080 --> 00:15:17,300 But then if I want to phone somebody. 499 00:15:17,400 --> 00:15:18,280 Like my daughter or something. 500 00:15:18,400 --> 00:15:19,320 I just plug the phone. 501 00:15:19,600 --> 00:15:20,120 Make the call. 502 00:15:20,260 --> 00:15:21,060 And then unplug it. 503 00:15:21,360 --> 00:15:23,700 Well twice I forgot to unplug it. 504 00:15:23,760 --> 00:15:24,760 And guess what happened? 505 00:15:24,760 --> 00:15:26,780 Each time this black lady phoned. 506 00:15:26,940 --> 00:15:28,580 From right halfway across the nation. 507 00:15:28,940 --> 00:15:31,480 And I had to see God wanted me 508 00:15:31,480 --> 00:15:32,180 to talk to her. 509 00:15:32,260 --> 00:15:34,040 That's why he let me forget to unplug 510 00:15:34,040 --> 00:15:34,380 the phone. 511 00:15:34,540 --> 00:15:36,940 Well that doesn't sound very grand and dramatic. 512 00:15:38,140 --> 00:15:42,220 That's a daily life of dying to minister 513 00:15:42,220 --> 00:15:42,580 life. 514 00:15:42,960 --> 00:15:46,740 We are continually being delivered unto death. 515 00:15:47,060 --> 00:15:47,980 For Jesus sake. 516 00:15:48,340 --> 00:15:50,040 That the life also of Christ. 517 00:15:50,320 --> 00:15:52,100 Might be manifested in our mortal body. 518 00:15:52,640 --> 00:15:54,000 I do think it goes a lot further 519 00:15:54,000 --> 00:15:54,500 than that. 520 00:15:54,760 --> 00:15:56,580 I mean to say it's more than just 521 00:15:56,580 --> 00:15:57,120 being willing. 522 00:15:57,720 --> 00:15:59,100 To talk to a lady on the phone. 523 00:15:59,300 --> 00:16:01,080 Because it depends what your priorities are. 524 00:16:01,220 --> 00:16:01,720 To me. 525 00:16:02,240 --> 00:16:03,300 Talking on the phone. 526 00:16:03,900 --> 00:16:04,620 Is a chore. 527 00:16:04,900 --> 00:16:06,460 I hate it at the best times. 528 00:16:06,940 --> 00:16:07,380 That's. 529 00:16:07,540 --> 00:16:08,120 I mean that's. 530 00:16:08,220 --> 00:16:09,120 I'm just like that. 531 00:16:09,560 --> 00:16:09,960 I mean I. 532 00:16:10,200 --> 00:16:11,920 If I make you a phone call. 533 00:16:12,060 --> 00:16:12,880 You may not know it. 534 00:16:12,960 --> 00:16:13,480 But it's a. 535 00:16:13,540 --> 00:16:15,260 It's a tribute as far as I'm concerned. 536 00:16:19,630 --> 00:16:21,690 I mean I've really paid the price. 537 00:16:22,190 --> 00:16:22,590 I just. 538 00:16:22,670 --> 00:16:23,770 I'd rather the phone. 539 00:16:24,110 --> 00:16:24,850 You know in a certain sense. 540 00:16:24,970 --> 00:16:25,810 I'd rather they didn't exist. 541 00:16:25,810 --> 00:16:26,670 But anyhow. 542 00:16:27,130 --> 00:16:29,090 Let's go on to the last passage in 543 00:16:29,090 --> 00:16:29,550 Philippians. 544 00:16:30,090 --> 00:16:30,870 Chapter 3. 545 00:16:32,230 --> 00:16:33,190 Verse 10. 546 00:16:33,810 --> 00:16:34,830 That I may know him. 547 00:16:35,350 --> 00:16:36,690 The power of his resurrection. 548 00:16:37,350 --> 00:16:38,610 The fellowship of his suffering. 549 00:16:39,110 --> 00:16:41,010 Being made conformable unto his death. 550 00:16:41,430 --> 00:16:42,630 If by any means. 551 00:16:42,810 --> 00:16:43,470 Through that. 552 00:16:43,790 --> 00:16:45,370 I might attain unto the resurrection. 553 00:16:45,830 --> 00:16:46,150 The dead. 554 00:16:46,610 --> 00:16:48,270 Do you think that Paul didn't know Jesus. 555 00:16:48,350 --> 00:16:49,250 When he wrote those words. 556 00:16:49,770 --> 00:16:51,170 I mean it's obvious that he did. 557 00:16:51,350 --> 00:16:53,570 He'd known him better than most of us. 558 00:16:53,650 --> 00:16:54,350 For many years. 559 00:16:54,350 --> 00:16:56,290 And he said that I may know him. 560 00:16:56,670 --> 00:16:57,030 Better. 561 00:16:57,590 --> 00:16:58,390 More intimately. 562 00:16:58,930 --> 00:16:59,710 More completely. 563 00:17:00,190 --> 00:17:01,290 And he said that I may know him 564 00:17:01,290 --> 00:17:02,230 in two aspects. 565 00:17:02,390 --> 00:17:03,630 The power of his resurrection. 566 00:17:04,290 --> 00:17:06,770 The fellowship or sharing together in his suffering. 567 00:17:07,230 --> 00:17:08,270 There are some people. 568 00:17:08,430 --> 00:17:10,349 That all they can talk about is crucifixion. 569 00:17:10,750 --> 00:17:11,810 The crucified life. 570 00:17:12,369 --> 00:17:15,050 And many times I found them rather miserable. 571 00:17:15,609 --> 00:17:18,230 I don't believe God asks us. 572 00:17:18,550 --> 00:17:20,050 To share the crucified life. 573 00:17:20,450 --> 00:17:22,569 Until we've tasted the power of his resurrection. 574 00:17:22,930 --> 00:17:25,089 You notice the power of his resurrection comes 575 00:17:25,089 --> 00:17:25,630 first. 576 00:17:26,109 --> 00:17:27,329 Then the fellowship of his sufferings. 577 00:17:27,349 --> 00:17:28,470 If you don't have the power of his 578 00:17:28,470 --> 00:17:28,930 resurrection. 579 00:17:29,510 --> 00:17:30,850 What will you do with the fellowship of 580 00:17:30,850 --> 00:17:31,530 his sufferings. 581 00:17:31,650 --> 00:17:32,830 You won't be able to handle it. 582 00:17:33,310 --> 00:17:33,650 I think. 583 00:17:33,830 --> 00:17:34,050 I have. 584 00:17:34,090 --> 00:17:34,950 This is going to be difficult for me 585 00:17:34,950 --> 00:17:35,210 to say. 586 00:17:35,250 --> 00:17:36,670 And I wouldn't say it in most places. 587 00:17:37,170 --> 00:17:38,510 Maybe I shouldn't even say it here. 588 00:17:38,950 --> 00:17:40,670 I think I really came to understand this. 589 00:17:40,730 --> 00:17:41,510 When the wife took. 590 00:17:41,630 --> 00:17:42,870 When the Lord took my wife home. 591 00:17:43,610 --> 00:17:45,030 The fellowship of his suffering. 592 00:17:45,530 --> 00:17:47,230 Because one of the greatest privileges of my 593 00:17:47,230 --> 00:17:47,610 life. 594 00:17:47,950 --> 00:17:48,930 Was to be with her. 595 00:17:49,310 --> 00:17:50,270 Till the Lord took her. 596 00:17:50,590 --> 00:17:51,810 And to share her sufferings. 597 00:17:51,810 --> 00:17:53,810 There wasn't anywhere else in the world. 598 00:17:53,950 --> 00:17:54,950 That I would have been at that time. 599 00:17:55,050 --> 00:17:55,930 And if I'd not. 600 00:17:56,390 --> 00:17:58,090 I'd let the Holy Spirit nudge me. 601 00:17:58,170 --> 00:17:59,090 And told me not to go on a 602 00:17:59,090 --> 00:17:59,650 preaching trip. 603 00:17:59,930 --> 00:18:00,890 And that's why I was there. 604 00:18:01,330 --> 00:18:02,990 But I then learned this. 605 00:18:03,090 --> 00:18:04,790 That if you really love a person. 606 00:18:05,110 --> 00:18:07,390 You wouldn't want to be anywhere else. 607 00:18:07,430 --> 00:18:07,990 When they're suffering. 608 00:18:08,490 --> 00:18:09,830 And I see that's how it is with 609 00:18:09,830 --> 00:18:10,170 the Lord. 610 00:18:10,570 --> 00:18:11,910 If we really love him. 611 00:18:12,290 --> 00:18:13,470 We want to share his suffering. 612 00:18:13,830 --> 00:18:14,850 We don't want to leave him. 613 00:18:14,890 --> 00:18:16,010 When the going gets tough. 614 00:18:16,450 --> 00:18:18,150 And again I've seen this. 615 00:18:18,150 --> 00:18:22,010 That the most powerful thing in the universe. 616 00:18:22,530 --> 00:18:22,950 Is love. 617 00:18:23,350 --> 00:18:24,470 In the Old Testament it says. 618 00:18:24,570 --> 00:18:25,770 Love is strong as death. 619 00:18:26,170 --> 00:18:27,410 And you know death is strong. 620 00:18:27,890 --> 00:18:29,110 Death is irresistible. 621 00:18:29,530 --> 00:18:30,470 When death comes. 622 00:18:30,570 --> 00:18:32,450 There's no man can say no. 623 00:18:32,950 --> 00:18:33,510 The Bible says. 624 00:18:33,590 --> 00:18:34,670 Love is strong as death. 625 00:18:35,110 --> 00:18:36,330 Love is irresistible. 626 00:18:36,630 --> 00:18:37,430 When it comes. 627 00:18:37,810 --> 00:18:38,930 No one can say no. 628 00:18:39,350 --> 00:18:41,190 But it's like with electricity. 629 00:18:41,950 --> 00:18:43,230 The higher the voltage. 630 00:18:44,070 --> 00:18:46,470 The more you have to ensure. 631 00:18:46,530 --> 00:18:47,890 That it's properly insulated. 632 00:18:48,150 --> 00:18:49,870 Otherwise it's very dangerous. 633 00:18:50,450 --> 00:18:51,730 And I don't know whether you can take 634 00:18:51,730 --> 00:18:52,070 this. 635 00:18:52,170 --> 00:18:52,850 But if you can't. 636 00:18:52,890 --> 00:18:54,290 About 10 years from now. 637 00:18:54,390 --> 00:18:55,050 You think it over. 638 00:18:55,610 --> 00:18:56,770 But you may need experience. 639 00:18:57,730 --> 00:19:00,430 But the more God gives you his love. 640 00:19:00,730 --> 00:19:03,050 The more carefully it has to be insulated. 641 00:19:03,510 --> 00:19:05,290 Because if you play around with the love 642 00:19:05,290 --> 00:19:05,730 of God. 643 00:19:06,210 --> 00:19:07,490 You can control people. 644 00:19:07,830 --> 00:19:09,230 You can be like a pied piper. 645 00:19:09,350 --> 00:19:10,970 You can have people running after you. 646 00:19:11,370 --> 00:19:12,230 It sounds strange. 647 00:19:12,310 --> 00:19:12,930 But it's true. 648 00:19:13,550 --> 00:19:14,290 And you've got to be. 649 00:19:14,430 --> 00:19:16,450 Never have you got to be so careful. 650 00:19:16,450 --> 00:19:17,910 As when you know. 651 00:19:18,070 --> 00:19:19,930 The love of God is flowing through you. 652 00:19:20,130 --> 00:19:21,610 Because you can manipulate people. 653 00:19:22,010 --> 00:19:23,110 The average person. 654 00:19:23,350 --> 00:19:25,230 Never felt the love of God in his 655 00:19:25,230 --> 00:19:25,510 life. 656 00:19:26,030 --> 00:19:28,170 You come there to channel of God's love. 657 00:19:28,650 --> 00:19:29,830 And you're not insulated. 658 00:19:30,350 --> 00:19:31,230 Then going to be a problem. 659 00:19:31,790 --> 00:19:33,890 The insulation is death. 660 00:19:34,250 --> 00:19:35,630 Death worketh enough. 661 00:19:36,030 --> 00:19:36,870 But life in you. 662 00:19:37,330 --> 00:19:38,650 You want others to have life. 663 00:19:39,150 --> 00:19:39,910 There'll be a moment. 664 00:19:40,010 --> 00:19:41,430 Where you have to experience death. 665 00:19:41,810 --> 00:19:42,990 Don't go looking for it. 666 00:19:43,350 --> 00:19:44,530 Because God will arrange it. 667 00:19:45,450 --> 00:19:46,610 When it comes. 668 00:19:47,110 --> 00:19:48,070 Just bear that in mind. 669 00:19:48,210 --> 00:19:48,850 That's the price. 670 00:19:49,370 --> 00:19:51,330 And it just doesn't happen once or twice. 671 00:19:51,830 --> 00:19:54,310 There may be real critical moments in our 672 00:19:54,310 --> 00:19:54,630 lives. 673 00:19:55,130 --> 00:19:55,810 Where we can say. 674 00:19:55,910 --> 00:19:57,170 Well that moment I died. 675 00:19:57,290 --> 00:19:59,850 Maybe you accepted to calling us a missionary. 676 00:20:00,390 --> 00:20:01,870 I can look back now and think. 677 00:20:01,930 --> 00:20:03,070 When the Lord called me to be a 678 00:20:03,070 --> 00:20:03,310 missionary. 679 00:20:03,810 --> 00:20:04,830 In Jerusalem. 680 00:20:05,410 --> 00:20:07,130 I had been overseas in the British army. 681 00:20:07,270 --> 00:20:08,250 For four and a half years. 682 00:20:08,670 --> 00:20:10,390 My grandfather whom I dearly love. 683 00:20:10,430 --> 00:20:11,430 Was dying of cancer. 684 00:20:12,050 --> 00:20:12,350 He's. 685 00:20:12,350 --> 00:20:14,330 The Lord had kept him alive. 686 00:20:14,530 --> 00:20:15,890 Three years through my prayer. 687 00:20:16,470 --> 00:20:18,270 The British army owed me a trip. 688 00:20:18,630 --> 00:20:19,470 Back to England. 689 00:20:20,010 --> 00:20:22,330 Because that's where I was enlisted. 690 00:20:22,890 --> 00:20:24,390 But the Lord had called me. 691 00:20:24,530 --> 00:20:26,030 To serve him as a missionary. 692 00:20:26,510 --> 00:20:27,150 In Jerusalem. 693 00:20:27,750 --> 00:20:28,530 And I said to myself. 694 00:20:28,650 --> 00:20:29,630 Well I'll just go home. 695 00:20:30,090 --> 00:20:31,010 See my grandfather. 696 00:20:31,330 --> 00:20:32,210 My father and mother. 697 00:20:32,390 --> 00:20:32,970 And my family. 698 00:20:33,270 --> 00:20:33,990 Come back again. 699 00:20:34,530 --> 00:20:35,650 Start my missionary calling. 700 00:20:36,090 --> 00:20:37,150 And the Lord gave me. 701 00:20:37,650 --> 00:20:39,930 A most beautiful utterance. 702 00:20:40,470 --> 00:20:41,030 Interpreted. 703 00:20:41,030 --> 00:20:42,830 And was a picture of a ship. 704 00:20:42,910 --> 00:20:43,470 In a harbour. 705 00:20:43,550 --> 00:20:44,230 A sailing ship. 706 00:20:44,610 --> 00:20:45,650 Fully manned. 707 00:20:45,890 --> 00:20:47,230 All the sails in place. 708 00:20:47,510 --> 00:20:48,330 Everything ready. 709 00:20:48,510 --> 00:20:49,890 Just about to set sail. 710 00:20:50,250 --> 00:20:50,970 And he said. 711 00:20:51,030 --> 00:20:52,890 The ship is in the dock. 712 00:20:53,050 --> 00:20:54,450 You can get on now and go. 713 00:20:54,970 --> 00:20:56,090 If you don't get on now. 714 00:20:56,550 --> 00:20:57,730 The ship will go without you. 715 00:20:58,130 --> 00:20:59,330 And I learned one thing. 716 00:20:59,490 --> 00:21:01,590 God's calling doesn't suit man's convenience. 717 00:21:02,150 --> 00:21:03,930 And I said no to my parents. 718 00:21:04,330 --> 00:21:05,230 No to my grandfather. 719 00:21:05,370 --> 00:21:06,630 No to my university career. 720 00:21:07,150 --> 00:21:08,190 And I stepped on the ship. 721 00:21:08,610 --> 00:21:09,450 That was a death. 722 00:21:09,450 --> 00:21:13,010 But I have never never never regretted it. 723 00:21:13,310 --> 00:21:15,130 Every time God is going to open. 724 00:21:15,290 --> 00:21:18,450 Some new level or experience of life to 725 00:21:18,450 --> 00:21:18,750 you. 726 00:21:19,150 --> 00:21:20,910 The price is death. 727 00:21:21,310 --> 00:21:23,050 It comes in many many different ways. 728 00:21:23,170 --> 00:21:25,370 God suits it to your particular situation. 729 00:21:25,950 --> 00:21:27,530 You may have to give up a boyfriend. 730 00:21:28,050 --> 00:21:28,850 Or a girlfriend. 731 00:21:29,410 --> 00:21:30,830 Might be a very nice person. 732 00:21:31,250 --> 00:21:33,490 But not the one that God can bless 733 00:21:33,490 --> 00:21:34,170 your life with. 734 00:21:34,550 --> 00:21:36,170 God has got his ways of doing things. 735 00:21:36,170 --> 00:21:39,070 There was that lady that was called to 736 00:21:39,070 --> 00:21:39,770 West Africa. 737 00:21:39,930 --> 00:21:40,650 What was her name? 738 00:21:41,190 --> 00:21:42,870 She was known as the White Queen of 739 00:21:42,870 --> 00:21:43,350 Calabar. 740 00:21:43,470 --> 00:21:44,210 Mary Slessor. 741 00:21:44,590 --> 00:21:45,710 When the Lord called her. 742 00:21:45,810 --> 00:21:47,510 She was very interested in a man. 743 00:21:48,090 --> 00:21:49,510 And he was very interested in her. 744 00:21:50,110 --> 00:21:51,630 And so he sent her a letter. 745 00:21:51,830 --> 00:21:52,970 And said if you write back. 746 00:21:53,470 --> 00:21:54,250 We'll get married. 747 00:21:55,690 --> 00:21:56,990 She mailed the letter. 748 00:21:57,550 --> 00:21:58,690 And it got lost in the post. 749 00:21:59,010 --> 00:22:00,870 It didn't arrive till 10 years later. 750 00:22:01,410 --> 00:22:02,870 So she left for Calabar. 751 00:22:03,070 --> 00:22:04,030 And they never got married. 752 00:22:04,030 --> 00:22:06,590 That was God's way of cutting that root. 753 00:22:09,070 --> 00:22:11,090 So who knows what will happen. 754 00:22:11,690 --> 00:22:12,810 But I tell you. 755 00:22:13,030 --> 00:22:16,070 God has always got something much better. 756 00:22:16,550 --> 00:22:17,690 Than you could ever dream of. 757 00:22:18,030 --> 00:22:20,270 God demonstrated that to me with our house. 758 00:22:20,350 --> 00:22:20,850 And I'm not. 759 00:22:21,170 --> 00:22:23,170 I am not proud of our house. 760 00:22:23,350 --> 00:22:24,790 I'm not coveted. 761 00:22:25,190 --> 00:22:26,670 I've walked out of two houses. 762 00:22:27,130 --> 00:22:28,490 Left them fully furnished. 763 00:22:28,610 --> 00:22:29,670 And never gone back to them. 764 00:22:29,810 --> 00:22:30,930 So you know. 765 00:22:31,410 --> 00:22:32,630 I've been tested that way. 766 00:22:32,630 --> 00:22:34,150 But God showed me. 767 00:22:34,310 --> 00:22:35,370 And he's shown me again. 768 00:22:35,510 --> 00:22:35,810 And again. 769 00:22:35,930 --> 00:22:36,230 And again. 770 00:22:36,310 --> 00:22:37,590 In every area of my life. 771 00:22:37,990 --> 00:22:39,470 If I will let him plan. 772 00:22:39,950 --> 00:22:41,990 He'll plan better than I would ever do 773 00:22:41,990 --> 00:22:42,490 it for myself. 774 00:22:42,630 --> 00:22:43,430 I mean that. 775 00:22:43,470 --> 00:22:44,730 Better every way. 776 00:22:44,850 --> 00:22:45,830 On a higher level. 777 00:22:46,330 --> 00:22:48,910 But always the price is. 778 00:22:49,330 --> 00:22:50,690 Death to my own ideas. 779 00:22:51,230 --> 00:22:52,570 Death to my own will. 780 00:22:53,390 --> 00:22:54,970 Death to my own feelings. 781 00:22:55,410 --> 00:22:57,030 If you want to find your life. 782 00:22:57,370 --> 00:22:58,290 What do you have to do? 783 00:22:58,730 --> 00:22:59,190 Lose it. 784 00:22:59,430 --> 00:23:00,510 If you hold on to it. 785 00:23:00,890 --> 00:23:01,910 Then you do lose it. 786 00:23:01,910 --> 00:23:03,010 You've heard about. 787 00:23:03,110 --> 00:23:04,810 I think one of those missionaries that was 788 00:23:04,810 --> 00:23:05,150 killed. 789 00:23:05,890 --> 00:23:08,210 In South America some years back. 790 00:23:08,650 --> 00:23:09,830 I forget which one it was. 791 00:23:09,890 --> 00:23:10,970 But he wrote this in a book. 792 00:23:11,090 --> 00:23:11,530 And I really. 793 00:23:11,730 --> 00:23:12,570 I'll leave it with you. 794 00:23:12,690 --> 00:23:12,890 I think. 795 00:23:13,350 --> 00:23:14,530 I can't say it any better. 796 00:23:15,210 --> 00:23:15,650 He said. 797 00:23:15,730 --> 00:23:16,790 He is no fool. 798 00:23:17,250 --> 00:23:19,690 Who gives up that which he cannot keep. 799 00:23:19,950 --> 00:23:21,730 To gain that which he cannot lose. 800 00:23:22,150 --> 00:23:23,430 So when the choice comes. 801 00:23:23,750 --> 00:23:25,070 Remember you're not a fool. 802 00:23:25,210 --> 00:23:26,750 To give up what you can't keep. 803 00:23:27,150 --> 00:23:28,350 To get what you can't lose. 804 00:23:28,750 --> 00:23:29,410 God bless you.